DOSE: T+ 0:00	repeated	oral	Alcohol - Hard
T+ 0:00	1 hit	oral	LSD	(blotter / tab)
T+ 1:30	10 mg	oral	Amanitas - A. muscaria

BODY WEIGHT:

150 lb

This experience was my first one with amanitas. My prior experiences include LSD, Psilocybin mushrooms, 2c-I, 2c-E, DMT, MDMA, ketamine, various uppers and downers, and others.

My girlfriend and I had about 20 grams of amanitas that we'd ordered from an online vendor. The original shipment contained an ounce, but we had taken a small dose (around 2-3 grams each) along with one of our friends just to get a feel for the mushroom and make sure we would not have any unexpected reaction to the drug. We were saving the remaining 20 grams to split evenly between me and my girl when the time felt right. Well one night after taking one tab of acid each and drinking gin heavily, we made the foolish decision to eat 10 grams each of the amanitas. This was about 1.5 hours after eating the LSD, and probably around 11 pm.

As we were eating the mushrooms, we decided to go for a walk outside. My best guess is that we spent about 20 minutes outside while eating the amanitas. As we returned to my girlfriend's house, we started to trip heavily. At first it was pleasant and I experienced some of the most interesting and enjoyable visuals from any of my psychedelic trips. My girlfriend and I laid in her bed feeling very close as we continued to come up. What happened next is difficult to remember in full detail, and impossible to describe with words. I have no way of giving any information related to time after this point.

We had somewhat coherent conversations for some time, and I remember drooling uncontrollably during this time. Then my girlfriend began rambling about something that, to me, seemed like utter nonsense, but obviously made perfect sense in her mind. I tried to ignore what she was saying, because at this point I’d already begun to feel uneasy. With my back turned to her, I attempted to focus on my own thoughts, and spent some time in a sort of delirium reminiscent of feverish childhood sickness.

When I finally came out of this phase (my best guess is that this lasted around 2.5 hours) I tried to talk to my girlfriend. She looked at me and would respond with very simple answers, but didn’t seem to be all there. I told her I was freaking out, she gave me a sinister look and began laughing at me. It was like I was talking to an entirely different person, like she’d become someone else. I had to get up and leave, feeling that I had no other choice. This was around 5 am. At this point I went to my apartment to get something to drink, threw up, and slept for about an hour. When I woke up and was sober enough to think some normal thoughts again, I realized that I needed to return to her and make sure she was alright.

When I got back to her place, she was still lying in her bed. I tried to talk to her but she didn’t respond to me really. She had a blank stare that terrified me. I touched her back and tried to hold her in my arms, but she didn’t respond. Normally, even if she had been in a deep sleep, she’d have turned to me and embraced me as well. I was seriously scared that she may never return to normal. This thought was so terrifying, to think that someone with whom I’m so deeply in love would never be the same person again. Well I just stayed there with her hoping she’d come out of the trip, which she eventually did.

When she first “woke up” (I use this phrase because I have no other way to describe it) she had no recollection of anything that had happened. She still seemed somewhat odd, like she wasn’t totally there. I began to describe to her the terror I felt when I was unable to communicate with her. She didn’t seem to understand at first, but slowly as we continued to come down she realized the significance of what had happened. Several times during this period, she slipped back into the state she’d been in earlier and gave me the same blank stare and sinister, evil laugh. Each time this lasted only about a minute before she came back to me again. As the day progressed she slowly returned to her normal self and now we both feel much better as I am writing this (around 11:30 pm the day after the experience).

Though this experience was both terrifying and difficult on the mind, I feel that I have gained a lot from it. I realize that it was foolish for us to eat the amanitas to begin with. I also realized several other things about myself that I do not feel appropriate to discuss in this report. Overall, I would say that the mushroom taught me more than I had anticipated despite the circumstances under which it was consumed. The amanita has so much to offer, but it deserves the utmost respect. I plan on eating the mushroom again sometime in the future, but only when I am sober from all other substances.

Exp Year: 2013	ExpID: 101761
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 20
Published: Dec 10, 2021	Views: 610
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