Being God
Mushrooms - P. cubensis & Ketamine
Citation: The Other Side. "Being God: An Experience with Mushrooms - P. cubensis & Ketamine (exp103)". Erowid.org. Jul 11, 2001. erowid.org/exp/103
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300 mg | oral | Ketamine | (powder / crystals) |
T+ 0:00 | 3.0 g | oral | Mushrooms - P. cubensis | (dried) |
T+ 0:30 | 2.0 g | oral | Mushrooms - P. cubensis | (dried) |
T+ 3:59 | 200 mg | oral | Ketamine | (powder / crystals) |
T+ 3:59 | 200 ug | insufflated | Ketamine | (powder / crystals) |
I now eyed up about 700 mg of Ketamine. I ingested about 300 mg and about 3 grams of the mushrooms. 30 minutes passed, and I ingested the rest of the mushrooms (2 more grams). About five minutes later, I saw a small oval light, about the size of a quarter. I was about five or six feet in the air. It made its way down to level ground, and I was transformed into a world of kaleidoscopic colors and patterns.
I began to look out into the distance and saw what appeared to be a face. At first it was only an eye. Then a nose and a moth, and finally the other eye. It was trying to tell me something, but I couldn't tell what. It's expression was difficult to distinguish. At first it looked happy, but then it was just a face. I could tell that considerable effort was put just to make itself visible.
I leaned back down and realized my eyes were not open. I could see very clearly, more clearly than I ever could, all the different shapes and colors. I was inside my brain -or at least I thought. I could tell the difference from all the various chemicals and enzymes excreting from all the different glands. Each chemical would induce a different thought or feeling to the receptor that it would come in contact with.
Everything was so clear. I could see and feel each of the endless colors. What I could see were no longer patterns, but they were structures. I could see and feel all the way around and inside them; all of them at the same time. I was one with everything. And everything was one with me. I opened my eyes, and I was outside and inside of the actual building was in. I was part of the wall and part of the people. I was part of time and part of space. I was time and I was space. I was all there was, and all there would ever will be. One would say I was a god. Hell, I'll say it myself: 'I am God'.
At this point, I began to take control of what was mine, the Universe. I made some things happen, and I changed some things from happening. Then I just sat back and enjoyed my new Universe. Quite sometime later -I have no idea how long- I began to come down. I ate 200 mg more ketamine, and insulflated another 200 mg. Within minutes, I was back. The second time was not quite as high as the first, but very close. It was probably because the mushrooms were beginning to lose their effect.
This was the best experience I have ever had. I see no way as to how it could be better. I went on -and not sure I came down yet- the biggest ego trip ever. On LSD I had been part of God, and I had all the knowledge there ever was. But this time I was God, and I created all the knowledge was mine. Other mushroom trips had not even come close.
The ketamine had a very powerful effect. It had a dramatic decrease in the time it took for the journey to begin. This was the best experience I ever had -on anything. My theory is that a psychedelic drug uses so much of its energy to take you out of your body, and then uses it's remaining energy to show you what you need. But if you take a dissociative -please make yourself aware of dissociatives and brain damage-, the dissociative takes you out of your body first, so the other drugs can use all of it's energy to teach you. I didn't think this up from just this experience. But I have experimented with a few other different plants.
Exp Year: 1999 | ExpID: 103 |
Gender: Not Specified | |
Age at time of experience: Not Given | |
Published: Jul 11, 2001 | Views: 6,127 |
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