DOSE: T+ 0:00	1.5 mg	oral	Pharms - Alprazolam
T+ 0:02	1 hit	smoked	Cannabis
T+ 1:00	0.25 mg	oral	Pharms - Alprazolam
T+ 1:15	3 hits	smoked	Cannabis
T+ 1:30	0.75 mg	oral	Pharms - Alprazolam
T+ 0:00	repeated	oral	Pharms - Alprazolam

BODY WEIGHT:

175 lb

[Erowid Note: The dose described in this report is very high, potentially beyond Erowid's 'heavy' range, and could pose serious health risks or result in unwanted, extreme effects. Sometimes extremely high doses reported are errors rather than actual doses used.]
1900h: 1.5mg alprazolam
1902h: 1 hit of marijuana
2000h: 0.25mg alprazolam
2015h: 3 hits of marijuana
2030h: 0.75mg alprazolam
2000h-?: 6mg alprazolam

In the past couple of years, I have taken MDMA recreationally more than I would like to admit, LSD here and there, shrooms whenever I can get my hands on them, and a fair bit of the ganj. Before this, I was prescribed clonazepam for anxiety, which made me dopy, then lorazepam, which didn't really have a pronounced effect on me, so I moved onto Xanax.

I have taken this drug in the past in smaller therapeutic doses and have always made sure to space my doses out apart by a few days if possible (the most I've been able to get usually 0.5mg max) and it has done some amazing things to reduce anxiety. Yesterday, I was very unintelligent and decided to try a full 2mg dosage of alprazolam, but that's not even where the least intelligent part begins. I was hoping to space out my initial dosage between an hour, but ended up taking more than anticipated (2.25 at this point).

I felt no effects after the first hour and a half and decided to take another .75 mg (3mg total now). Then things started to get fuzzy. I woke up this morning in my bed, which was confusing - I don't remember moving to my room at all. When I checked my medicine cabinet, with an amount consistent with taking 9.5mg of alprazolam, meaning I have no clue how many more I took at a time at what interval (must have been pretty shortly after 8:30 I'm guessing. And I honestly don't even know if it's because I forgot about the earlier ones, which scares me. I don't remember how I was feeling at that point, what would prompt me to take way more than I initially planned.

The part that bummed me the most is that I missed out hanging with my friends, and really really wish I could have the evening back. I'm not touching these again for a long time. My friends were over last night, and I fell asleep before 10:00 and I didn't get up until 15 hours later. I feel really really crummy today, feel like I can't walk, and am not planning on taking this medication again. Most of all, I didn't get to hang with my friends because I passed out so early all because I decided it might be fun to try this (in retrospect it was pretty selfish because we had plans for the evening and I was a blubbering fool beforehand and passed out before we could even go out).

I've decided I'm taking a break from alprazolam. I wasn't on a very high dosage (this spike was a first-time for me) and have enough pills to me taper off safely. Overall, I did not find this experience enjoyable in the least part. I don't think I'll ever try this drug again, recreationally especially.

What I have been able to draw from this experience is that I think I'm ready to slowly stop taking this drug and looking into other venues for anxiety. I'm grateful for the times when it has been extremely helpful, but I think it's best for me to stop using it at this point. It has truly helped me to calm my anxiety in the past, but I'm too terrified a person to let this black-out happen again even if it is under very very foolish circumstances

Exp Year: 2014	ExpID: 103031
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 25
Published: Dec 14, 2022	Views: 473
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