DOSE:	100 g	oral	Banisteriopsis caapi	(tea)
	100 g	oral	Mimosa tenuiflora	(tea)
	50 g	oral	Psychotria viridis	(tea)

BODY WEIGHT:

160 lb

Ayahuasca Level 2-3 Beautiful Experience

I had my second experience with ayahuasca after a very weak but insightful first experience, and am glad that I have gotten to dive into it with a very uplifting and pleasant experience. Some of my previous psychedelic experiences have been way too intense, and I was quite scared of that happening given what I've heard about ayahuasca, but I'm happy that it turned out to be a perfect level 2-level 3 trip with very insightful happenings. I don't take any medication and hadn't had drugs or alcohol for a week prior to this experience.

I first began by drinking 100 grams banisteriopsis caapi that had been boiled for 5 hours. I would have liked to boil it longer with multiple boils, but this was one of the few opportunities I had with the house to myself and I was a bit excited to try. The plan was to see how I felt and go wherever I felt was right, but I had a feeling I would probably want to set up a nice space on the balcony to relax with music and candles.

The drink immediately started to have noticeable effects on my mood. I was walking around very carefree, very excited, and in a very pleasant mood overall. I lost track of time a bit while listening to music outside on the porch. My girlfriend (soon to be wife in 3 days) was setting up a space for me outside with candles, a nice nature photograph I took, a carpet and pillows to lay on/sit on. The time was somewhere around 11pm, and I hadn't eaten anything for a few hours beforehand (though I did sneak a few sweets while we were baking together that night, probably shouldn't have but I couldn't help myself while baking).

Around this time I then consumed 50 grams of psychotria viridis and 10 grams of mimosa hostilis prepared in the same way. I knew that the boiling once for a short time was not going to produce the full alkaloids, but I was ok with that because the first trip I only used 10 grams of mimosa and it wasn't as strong as I would have liked. I'm sure a better preparation method would have made a difference but I truly think this is all the plant material wanted me to consume, without extracting everything fully which I might not have been able to handle.

The purge came pretty quickly, I was only able to drink 3/4 of the viridis/hostilis mixture before it just had to come out. The light from the candles before and after the purge started to have a nice tracing glow, and everything felt very calm. I listened alternatively to the breeze and thought things over in my life, thought of how nice it was to be so connected to the earth and to know I am truly just an animal like everything else. To be in a home built of living materials, and to have someone loving by my side just felt great.

About 30-45 minutes into the experience the closed eye visuals started getting a bit overwhelming while my girlfriend was away. I started to see demons, and started to become fearful. My mind was racing with thoughts of 'now, you only have yourself to face, there is nothing in the way, its time to face your demons,' and I really was not wanting to do that but I was willing to accept that maybe this was what I needed to do. I became scared it would be intense, but just as it was starting to feel intense I felt a warm glow from my girlfriend walking over to me and asking me if everything was going alright.

She heaped kisses on me which just felt absolutely amazing, and the dark visuals suddenly turned to bright flashing 3 dimensional dna strands, mixed with us flying on this carpet through a beautiful meadow that looked straight out of lord of the rings or the wizard of oz. Everything was beautiful and ok, and I really was feeling extremely close to my girlfriend in a way I cannot possibly describe. Loving feelings, feeling like the happiest I could possibly be, feeling so grateful for where I was in life. Realizing that part of why I felt so good was that I have her by my side.

At this point my girlfriend said she was starting to feel some sort of warm loving feelings as well in a way she had never felt before, and suggested we have sex. I didn't think it would be possible, and really didn't want to stop the closed eye visuals, so I asked if we could have sex with my eyes closed. She laughed in such a playful way and agreed, and what happened next was one of the most intense, ritualistic, anamalistic sexual experiences of my life. It was definitely the best sex I have ever had, and felt very raw, primal, tribal, with each touch lighting up my skin (I could see her even with my eyes closed, but as a flashing warm lighted spirit). I became a bit distracted at times by the visuals, flying through the neon clouds on a journey that kept making me ask if this was real and if I was sure I wasn't just having an intense imagination.

Whenever my mind questioned the journey, it would just take me to a new destination, and we continued having sex for a very long time. I didn't think it was possible to orgasm, but it was feeling so good that my girlfriend suggested I just lay back and watch the visuals while she did everything. I felt so relaxed, so at ease with the world and kept wondering what I actually did all day, why I didn't just do this every day. We changed music to some psychedelic music and to queen's track 13 from made in heaven, and both were changing the visuals with the music and shaping my thoughts. 'I am you' by shpongle really felt made for that moment, made just for us to be there right then, and I realized that he was a person just like us who did make music just as when we were tribal living peoples, for that special moment to make a person feel so amazing.

I felt completely unrestricted and asked if we could have anal sex, and my girlfriend agreed that it would be a good idea. We discussed children and how beautiful it would be to be like this as a child, since I felt so alive and yet was so clairvoyant at the same time. I was talking normally, yet felt so childlike, alive, and it really felt like kids would be a great option but then we reminded ourselves not to. So we slowly worked our way up to having anal sex, and my girlfriend whispered to me in such a sweet way how this could only work between us, how no one else can just do this together and feel this good. I felt like our bodies were morphing together, and I realized our bodies are really one just as everyone's bodies in the universe are one.

It was pretty dark out by now (it doesn't get dark till very late in my part of the world) and we decided to continue inside. I went inside and while waiting for my girlfriend the negative thoughts and feeling started coming back. Thoughts of 'now you're alone again, facing yourself, no one here to help' were flowing very quickly until she came back and we continued the sex. It was continuing for a very long time as I wasn't able to orgasm really and my girlfriend started for feel like she had to use the bathroom. But as she said that, she also said 'but since this is such good sex, you really should try to orgasm I'm sure it will feel so amazing if everything else is,' and it really started to feel ritualistic/tribal on the couch with the candles as I tried to orgasm.

I finally was able to and went to the bathroom with her. I looked in the mirror and just smiled at what I saw. I realized how big I really was now, that I wasn't just a child, but that my heart was still childlike. I felt very calm and didn't have a warped/morphing effect on my face in the mirror like what usually happens on psychadelics for me. When I closed my eyes the visuals returned very strongly, but then when I opened them everything was just brighter but not too otherworldly.

My girlfriend at some points during the sex was looking very alien, but in a very relateable way. It really made me feel how much we are all still animals, we are all still tribal somewhere deep down inside us. This world isn't real, anything that is real is just created inside our brains.

The experience continued to get milder and my girlfriend and I had a deep discussion about my life and things I had screwed up in the past, what I wanted to work on, and how we had hurt each other in the past. We started to both feel a bit bad about the things we had done to each other, but it was very healing to know those feelings can fade with enough love from one another.

I ate some food and decided that this would be the end of the experience, knowing I could make it more intense if I had wanted to with marijuana but content to actually have a not too intense, good psychedelic experience to remind me just why I love these substances and that I can have a normal experience without having to face every demon of my life and have my whole world/concept of time shattered in another dimension that I'm stuck in. The visuals were way different than any other substance I've been on but still were so familiar, like I 'knew' how they were going to be based on other peoples descriptions and psychedelic artwork related to DMT.

Exp Year: 2014	ExpID: 103897
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 25
Published: Jun 12, 2018	Views: 2,472
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