DOSE:

60 mg

oral

Methoxetamine

(powder / crystals)

BODY WEIGHT:

50 kg

I have to confess not being exactly fond of opiates and dissociatives, probably because I relate them to my past depression and the times spent at the hospital which was not my favourite place either. With that being said, I haven't experienced any new substances since I last dropped some 25c-nbome and had a really unpleasant trip - like a punch in the eyes and brains followed by strong physical discomfort - and just this week I decided to kill my curiosity about ketamine by taking its distant weird cousin, the MXE.

It was just two days ago I studied a bit about the substance and took the courage to take it after a long busy day and feeling it could help overcoming some emotional morosity or at least having a better night of sleep filled by lucid dreams.

22:00
I am feeling quite sleepy and decide to take it alone by myself, as my social anxiety only lets, so after preparing my room for it, leaving a lamp by my bed and rolling the last joint, I took orally 60 mg and sat to finish my tea and put on some cartoons.

+ 00:20
After watching two episodes without feeling anything different I put on the Doors and try to force some visuals. All of the sudden it comes to my perception a strange discomfort by my stomach and a mild migraine start to bother me.

+ 00:40
By this moment I can feel all the physical effects taken its form so not being able to walk properly and having the vision completely out of the frame, I feel compressed to sit by the floor and try to set on the lotus position just for a moment then realizing it feels too heavy to stand erect.

+ 01:00
My vision and audition are hypersensible and I can't stand even the less bright possible of the laptop screen so I turn it all off and try to explore the m-hole. I don't want to listen to any music and the noises in the apartment above are already bothering me too much to concentrate. Time dilation begins and I mustn't spent more than five minutes in this position with my eyes closed.

+ 01:20
Some mild stimulation has taken my brain and I feel it won't be possible to rest for some time, so I search for a movie to distract me and start watching Speed Racer - probably the best decision of the day. The first hour felt like a decade though the movie was very entertaining and took my head away from the physical discomfort that bothered me so much.

+ 02:20
I feel my humour could use an up and being able to stand up and walk around properly with my vision a lot more in focus, I get by the window and light up a joint. I didn't even finish it to came back under the sheets and finish the movie. Not much changed, but I could seize better the graphics, which are extraordinary by the way. Every fifteen minutes and so on I would guess the film was ending so a heavy fatigue starts taking my body, limb by weird limb. I feel my head growing bigger and bigger until the moment I became another being from the chest up. I regret smoking weed as my migraine also grew stronger.

+ ~03:40
As soon as the movie finished, I couldn't stand any noise or light at all and had this strong headache pulling my brain apart, so I gave it up and turn it all off again. It must had been no more than fifteen minutes before I fell asleep for the whole night uninterruptly.

The next morning I woke up with the same mental confusion, feeling language far off my grasp. I took my morning coffee as getting ready to meet a friend of mine for lunch. It's hot as hell and I can't eat a damn thing, so we decided to walk around and grab a juice. It feels just perfect and I spent the whole day without food, though I felt too bored without the gift of a morning wake and bake. As I came home and rested a bit, I went to get some weed and felt my legs working 20% as I rode my bike down the streets for no more than 15 minutes then being completely exhausted. After getting home again I unintentionally fell asleep and woke up even more tired. I feel this day won't render a bit so I smoke a 3/4 tobacco joint and took a long shower. By the night I could feel the HPPD-like visual disturbances were stronger and the mental weirdness was still on. This night I experienced greatly detailed dreams and had a long sleep, though it is still visible my physical restlessness and the anti-depressive effects were not as strong as I thought it would be. I feel I should stick to the psychedelics and this substance may not be my ideal one.

Exp Year: 2014	ExpID: 104637
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: 19
Published: Apr 26, 2016	Views: 1,916
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