DOSE:

60 mg

Salvia divinorum

(extract)

BODY WEIGHT:

67 kg

I was sitting with my friends, opening a newly arrived Salvia divinorum extract with X40 potency.

I wasn't measuring exactly how much I'm taking, feeling 'confident' in my ability to 'handle it'. Oh my... this Salvia hit me hard, I totally lost track of where I'm and who am I. It took more than a day just to formulate to myself, the intense experience I had in some sort of words, and to make any sense of what happened.

My experience had three levels combined, so I will explain each level separately, but notice it all was part of single very intense and confusing experience.

1. Reality had split and time was looping. When I make any action I first imagine myself doing it, with salvia my thought of making some action, was part of some parallel reality, where I'm actually doing this action. So it felt like: I was doing some action in parallel universe, doing, doing, doing - then I come to my universe, doing this action in my universe, actually getting up making a circle around my room, sitting down, continue doing this action in other universes but now it was my memory not imagination.

After few times of such action, getting up, making a small walk around my room, sitting down - everything is done in several universes in parallel, including this reality as well, I felt I'm in a time loop. Everything is repeating, I'm coming back to the same place and time doing the same action. This was scary but I just wasn't capable to think or to do anything else, I was looping and this is the only thing I can do, I remember it was very intense.

2. All this time I wasn't myself, I was my father - sitting in his old Soviet apartment. I remember it as a child, but this memory somehow transferred into me, I became my father 30 years ago, walking in a hallway turning the lights off and on. I felt that this action and this apartment and this action were my father's, and I was my father living in a Soviet Union of the time, I couldn't believe I live today as myself, and the people around me are my friends, I could barely recognize them and I couldn't realize I'm myself.

3. On top of all this, I had synesthesia. The feeling in my arms for a moment became the taste of a watermelon, I needed to focus to see them as my arms and not as a taste, and this happened several times. My pants were yellowish, and they became the mixed taste of melon and a carrot. Every action was accompanied with some taste of a fruit. I wasn't tasting the taste in my mouth, it's like the reality became the experience of eating different fruits, each time it was somewhat different fruit, or combination of several fruits.

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For me this experience was strange first of all. But also it taught me about how I make an action, I could meditate and see the separate levels of making any action, this is very insightful - to sense my intention, the action and the memory of the action. It also showed me how much I like the taste of fruits, and how I can meditate on this feeling, and it can become some ingredient of my existence. The fruit part is the weirdest so it's hard to explain, but it definitely opened a perceptual gate into reality for me.

Finally I realized how much the memory of my parents, and my parents themselves are part of me, how can I find them inside myself, and how much their genetics are part of my genetics. I could see the direct connection between parts of me and parts I see in my father, and realize it's the same entity that passes through us both.

Exp Year: 2016	ExpID: 109528
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 34
Published: Mar 25, 2020	Views: 796
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