DOSE: T+ 7:00	20 mg	oral	Melatonin	(pill / tablet)
T+ 0:00	1500 mg	oral	MDMA	(powder / crystals)

BODY WEIGHT:

220 lb

[Erowid Note: The doses described in this report are potentially life threatening. The amount taken is beyond a heavy dose and could pose serious health risks or result in unwanted, extreme effects. Doses such as this have been known to cause hospitalizations and/or deaths. Sometimes extremely high doses reported are errors rather than actual doses used.]
Disclaimer: I took a high dose on accident and wanted to describe it so people who may also accidentally take this dose will know about what to expect.

I did no preparation for the roll, which is always a terrible idea. In a fraternity house at my college, a good friend of mine approached me and asked if I wanted any Molly. He was clearly intoxicated, but I didn't know how intoxicated at first. He told me later he was blacked out on alcohol and didn't remember anything from the night. I said yes to the Molly because I had tried low doses 3 times prior and had a fun and safe time.

He told me to run up to his room and grab a little bag of pink crystals located somewhere on or around his desk, and mix it 50/50 in two glasses of water.

I looked for the bag but couldn't find it where he said it was. I knew the location of a couple other psychedelics in his room, so I thought he was mistaken and the Molly must be there. Sure enough there was a big bag of pink crystals with a few other bags of different substances. I mixed the crystals with water in two glasses like he instructed. I gave one to him, and drank one myself.

I didn't understand what a regular dose looked like due to my lack of experience with the substance. The next day, I found out there was 3 grams of tested pure Molly in the bag I split for both of us. That's 15 weak doses for each of us, or 6 heavy doses for each of us.

To get back to the present of the story, I started feeling the effects about 10 minutes after downing my glass. My friend ended up spilling his all over his shirt because of how intoxicated he was before he decided to do Molly (I consider this a blessing from God, as he could've gotten extremely dehydrated from the alcohol-Molly combination).

The first effects almost felt like high doses of alcohol. I stood up from the couch, then face planted immediately. I could barely walk to get myself water. My vision was getting extremely blurry and I couldn't focus my eyes on anything, especially close things. Mind you this is about 15 minutes in.

After I started feeling the effects I got extremely bad anxiety. He assured me he had a low dose in the bag he instructed me to grab and that I'd be okay (I grabbed his whole stash on accident though, not the 200 mg small bag he instructed me to grab. Neither of us knew at the time though). I felt so scared, and regretted taking it. I have depression, and have never been so upset and scared in my life than on the come up 15-30 minutes in.

My friend who was sober heard I was having a bad roll, so he went for a walk with me. At this point I was having EXTREME difficulty controlling my temperature. I quickly flipped back and forth between feeling hypothermic and hyperthermic. Hot flash after cold flash after hot flash etc. He tried to comfort me saying it was really hard to overdose on MDMA and I'd be okay. As we were walking I turned to him and told him I was about to throw up, even though my stomach felt fine. Sure enough, I turned and booted a load of stomach stuff. It didn't hurt or feel uncomfortable. It actually almost felt enjoyable. The amazing feeling after puking hit me and I began entering a state of pure euphoria.

We got back to the mansion and there was an afterparty for a formal going on. I ran inside and began talking to people for about 2 hours. Time flew. I almost forgot I was rolling so hard because I was having the time of my life just being social and meeting new people. Eventually I sat on a couch in the TV room with a group of many of my great friends. The experience started feeling surreal, as if it was a dream. I began getting absolutely insane visuals (that's coming from someone with lots of experience with heroic doses of mushrooms and LSD). Computer screens were floating through the air with a bunch of readable code on them. The room became separated into smaller rooms by thin films of rainbow colors, that were barely transparent. The air flowed like a rainbow waterfall through the room.

The visuals were clear as day, but I began completely losing my vision for what was real. My friends and the furniture became so blurry I couldn't differentiate an object from a human. This is the point in the trip my friends told me about the next day. They said I would repeat the same sentence over and over again until eventually I'd pick something new to repeat over and over again. They said I turned completely pale and sick looking, my eyes kept vibrating from left to right for short bursts, and I was sweating more profusely than anyone they'd ever seen.

From my perspective I was having the best time of my life. I was as happy as I'd ever been in my entire life by far. The visuals were absolutely incredible like nothing else.

I got no body high whatsoever (which is usual for pure MDMA). But mentally it was a rollercoaster that shot straight up at a million miles per hour into space. All my prior anxiety left me and I was so excited to get to know people and tell my friends how much I appreciated them.

4 hours into the trip my group went to the roof of the mansion and looked across the city. It blew my mind even though I could only see the flashing lights and colors. I can't describe with words how happy and excited I was about absolutely everything.

The rest of my roll was just more of the same. Talked to people, had a great time, couldn't see anything except visuals, couldn't control my temperature. I forgot to mention I started having partial to full body tremors half way in. I apparently told people I liked them and was having so much fun twitching. But I guess it was violent and scary to watch at some points. I literally couldn't stop shaking and spazzing out every second.

After the party died and everyone went to sleep I got sad, because I never wanted the party to end. I went back to my room and took 20 mg melatonin so I could hopefully go to sleep. It was about 2-3 am at the time I lied down. This is 7 hours into the trip (Molly had previously lasted about 6 hours for me). But that wasn't the end. I couldn't fall asleep and continued to roll hard until past 6 am! About a 10 hour roll! Slowly from 4 am to 6 am I stopped having tremors, my vision came back, I felt at normal temperature and I wasn't constantly thirsty. I was so tired though and couldn't come close to falling asleep until past 6.

One last thing: this weird occurrence kept happening while I was trying to sleep where my memory would completely fail and I would be disoriented. I kept going through time loops where I'd think I was writing an email with a laptop on my chest. But when I would put my hands on my chest to type there would be no lap top. I would think someone was handing me something to hold, but I'd extend my hand to grab it and my knuckles would just hit a wall. I also repeatedly for a long time kept reaching my hands out into space in front of me. I'd always think I'd know what I was grabbing for, but when I'd feel nothing I'd realize I never even knew what I was reaching out for. I recognized this type of memory failure from my past experiences on 5 tabs of LSD combined with marijuana. I'd feels as if time isn't real and I would just live life repeating the same action over and over. Search 'time loops on LSD' to find more description.

Post trip report: for 2 weeks after this roll I experienced extreme dizziness, fatigue, extreme depression, mood swings, and couldn't think straight. I rethought many of my perceptions of the world after this time period though and believe I've grown more as a human from this experience than anything else. I've never had a more clear understanding of life and myself than now.

Exp Year: 2016	ExpID: 109601
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 21
Published: Nov 29, 2016	Views: 12,210
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