DOSE:	300 ug	oral	AL-LAD
		smoked	Cannabis

BODY WEIGHT:

125 lb

Yesterday I took AL-LAD for the second time. I have some experience tripping (acid, 4-ACO, shrooms) but I've never had a trip anything like 300ug of AL-LAD. It was the craziest thing that's ever happened to me.

The first time I did AL-LAD my boyfriend and I each took 150ug and had an amazing time. Visually it was spectacular and my sense of touch was heightened. Sex was amazing, and we spent most of the day laughing and talking in bed. Acid makes me very emotional, but on AL-LAD I felt much more lucid and chatty.

A little after noon yesterday my boyfriend and I each took 300ug of AL-LAD. The trip started out pretty normally; I colored, we watched Bob Ross. After about an hour we decided to go for a walk. Our plan was to build a snowman. Everything outside looked incredible and so bright. We went to our favorite park and I told my boyfriend I'd never seen anything so beautiful in my entire life, and I was starting to trip much more intensely, although he was still coming up at that point. (He ate a bigger lunch and I had taken tums so his whole trip lagged about an hour after mine.)

The park looked more beautiful than it ever had before. I could see every granule of snow shine like radiant light. I swung until I was dizzy and my boyfriend and I ran around in the snow throwing snowballs. We decided it was best to head home and build a snowman in our backyard before peaking too hard. We both made perfect snowballs and carried them back home with us.

When we got back home we sat on the back porch. At that point I felt mostly lucid but things were starting to get pretty weird pretty fast. We decided to smoke a joint that I'd rolled earlier to blast off our visuals. Bad idea. Over the next few minutes I became hyper aware of the noises around me. The sound of a chainsaw buzz grew louder and more grating and I needed to get away from it so I decided to go up to our room and lie in bed. That's when shit got crazy.

I ran up the stairs as fast as I could because it felt like the walls were collapsing around me. I also had the most overwhelming feeling of deja vu, almost like I was moving in reverse and time was bending. I took off my shoes as fast as I could and collapsed onto my bed, unable to move. My boyfriend put on Fleetwood Mac's Rumors album.

The chainsaw noise I tried to escape only grew louder in my head and the pounding, four on the floor beat in the song Second Hand News drove me crazy. I could feel it like a pulse. I lost sense of who I was, I didn't even feel like a person. I kept repeating, 'What's going on? What's happening to me?'

When the song switched to Dreams I felt the smallest sense of relief. It's one of my favorite songs to listen to while tripping and it's very nostalgic. That song felt like the only thing tethering me to reality, giving me something to hold on to in the midst of fear and agitation.

Everything looked so insane it was hard to comprehend. It was kind of like in Adult Swim's Off The Air episodes when scenes freeze and slowly morph and swirl into other scenes. At one point I heard my boyfriend talk to me but it was like he was speaking in an alien language and I became very afraid that I'd been abducted and was being tested on, or that I was in some sort of parallel universe and everybody else knew what was going on except me.

It felt like that for a while, the high pitched buzzing never ceasing while I curled in fetal position and my boyfriend rubbed my back. At the worst of it I thought I might be dying or was maybe in some kind of limbo between being dead and alive.

My sight was fixed for a while on the map hanging on the wall. Every continent swirled together. I asked my boyfriend to tell me something. 'What do you want me to say?' he asked. 'Anything. Just talk to me. I need to hear your voice,' I told him. But he didn't say anything because he didn't know what to say and was also tripping pretty hard. I felt so alone and started to cry.

When I could finally get up I went to the shower and sat hugging my knees while the water ran over me. My boyfriend asked how I was feeling. 'Vulnerable,' I told him. He asked me if I wanted him to stay or leave and the question overwhelmed me so he just stood on the other side of the shower curtain and waited for me. When I finally stood up in the shower then light changed into a beautiful, radiant light and my body looked beautiful, thin and long. My skin looked almost alien and I thought I had scratches on my stomach and a rash on my legs but I didn't. I suddenly felt a lot more beautiful and at peace.

By the time I got out of the shower I felt so much better. My fear subsided and the trip cleared up a lot. I went back downstairs and finished coloring, then my closest friend came over and I told her about what I'd experienced.

One of my favorite aspects of tripping is how thankful it makes me feel for the good people I have in my life. It's usually very life affirming, and the afterglow of this trip was no different in that sense. I made dinner with my housemates as I came down and listened to Grimes album Visions and Carole King's Tapestry, two of my most favorite albums. It felt good to wash dishes, cut vegetables and cook food for other people. I was especially grateful to have gotten though such a wild experience, and I'm really thankful I had my boyfriend there to be with me when I needed him.

I don't think I'll ever do 300ug again, but I'll definitely do AL-LAD in smaller doses. I think the thing that really set me over the edge was smoking before I peaked. I had an insane time and I felt more terrified than I've ever felt before, but I don't have any regrets. It was mind blowing and I have a better understanding of what people mean when they talk about ego death now. AL-LAD is a really cool drug, just be careful with it. It can be a fucking wild ride.

Exp Year: 2017	ExpID: 109946
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: 22
Published: Feb 27, 2017	Views: 4,938
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