A Journey Beyond Comprehension
Morning Glory
Citation: AE_Lovecraft. "A Journey Beyond Comprehension: An Experience with Morning Glory (exp110278)". Erowid.org. Jun 20, 2018. erowid.org/exp/110278
DOSE: |
360 seeds | oral | Morning Glory | (seeds) |
BODY WEIGHT: | 135 lb |
I made sure to not eat anything for some time before I consumed the seeds, so I hadn’t eaten in roughly 12 hours, I know it helps relieve nausea from what I’ve heard.
My parents were gone for the week, so once they left I took them around 5:45PM, 100 at a time, chewing them to a paste and holding the paste under my tongue for about 3-4 minutes so I could soak everything in. The taste wasn’t too bad, it almost tasted like something I had before, but couldn’t pinpoint exactly what. I ate the seeds and felt rather confident and told myself there is no going back, I must embrace this, and here we go, embarking on my first psychedelic experience! I had only smoked pot occasionally here and there, but have a strong interest in the exploration of the mind and the body.
*6:00PM, 5 minutes in - I begin by focusing my mind with some positive energy meditation, simply relaxing as much as I could, this was my first psychedelic experience so I knew a lot was to come. I seemed to be able to relax with ease and focus on here and now for about 40 minutes, until the meditation ended.
*7:00PM, 1 hour in - Listening to music in bed, lying down and relaxing, still no real effects yet, but I feel the sickness coming on. I made sure I had a trash bin next to me for throwing up. I hate the feeling of being sick, but I figured it would be well worth it. The only trouble for me was, when I went to throw up, I simply couldn’t. I tried the gag method (almost sticking my whole hand past my tonsils) and the most that came up was a tiny little bit here and there, almost nothing at all.
*8:30PM, 2 ½ hours in - The sickness kicks in even more, and I start to feel the trip coming on. Beforehand, I knew so well that I had it in myself to manage and let go during a psychedelic experience, but now I knew that at this point I was so far off from that. Still, I kept reminding myself that everything was alright and I would make it through, “turn off your mind, relax, float downstream”. I have a bunch of yellow Christmas lights in my room and a lava lamp on as my light, and I knew at this point the real trip was coming on. I remember talking to two friends over the computer so I could have some company so I didn’t feel so alone, which did help a lot. As soon as I started talking to them, it truly hit.
--- I have yet to read any trip report compared to what I experienced, everything is beyond what I have ever heard from a Morning Glory Seed report, but all I say is truthful of what I experienced. Perhaps it was because it was my first psychedelic experience + high dose? ---
*9:00PM 3 hours in - From what I remember I was sitting at the edge of my bed, and I was just in awe and in a total daze, unable to focus while semi-transparent fluid but sheet-like ripples were flying to the sides of my vision and bending in multiple layers overlapping eachother. Meanwhile all of this was going on and I was beginning to feel excruciating pain everywhere in my body as I was still struggling with nausea. The nausea amplified everything, including fear, which is what I tried to let go of so hard. I wanted to release my mind from the pain but it was overbearing beyond anything I have ever experienced. At this time the friends I were talking to on the computer’s voices were echoing and suddenly they would stretch out and reverse and repeat over and over again. At this point, as much as I wanted to listen to music the whole time before the trip, sound was far too much to comprehend and handle.
At this point I am laying down in my bed again, eyes closed, and thousands upon thousands of waves of sound are looping and bending beyond my prior comprehension of sound dimension, almost like hearing every sound possible and unimaginable to reality. Sounds of airplanes were roaring and I think I remember knocking and heavy breathing sounds. I tried to escape it, but I realized there was no escape. Silence had infinite noise, beyond anything I could ever imagine.
I tried to escape it, but I realized there was no escape. Silence had infinite noise, beyond anything I could ever imagine.
*10:30PM, 4 ½ hours in - I remember going downstairs walking to the toilet, sitting on the floor to try to throw up, but still couldn’t, I wished so much to throw up. I felt the pain in every cell of my body, accompanied by feverish temperatures rising and dropping (which is regular from what I hear) I remember looking at the clock on the microwave and was roughly 10:45 from what I recall, but it was 9:something upstairs, as I was downstairs and upstairs at the same time. I vaguely remember it but I was everywhere. Trying to walk towards my staircase, it was dark downstairs but I remember my vision swaying and rotating slightly clockwise and counterclockwise, then suddenly I saw my vision in a bunch of different frames going inward and loosely like a tunnel anywhere all inside my original sight, I Photoshopped what I remember from it
I finally managed to make my way upstairs and went to the toilet there, holding the walls but I was the walls at the same time, I was melting into them. Eventually I made it back into my bed, still shook with immense pain and fear, but still trying to observe and process everything, but it was exalted above anything I ever knew was possible. It is almost as though these things are happening all the time but we are concealed and framed in this reality that I can’t see what it’s like when I'm tripping in different dimensions. I remember looking up at my ceiling which has a tapestry on it, and in the corners of the tapestry there are suns (actually) but I remember seeing the little suns on the corners spinning in circles, opening their mouths, and eating a bowl of something, glowing in cellophane colors a few times, then begin to do the same thing over and over again. But the looks from the sun’s eyes were as though they were so far above me intellectually. They possessed so much knowledge.
*11:00PM, 5 hours in - At this point the nausea was unbearable, I was doubling over in pain on my bed, trying to sleep on my side, except there were no sides. It was as though I was in a dimension with no laws of physical space.
At this point the nausea was unbearable, I was doubling over in pain on my bed, trying to sleep on my side, except there were no sides. It was as though I was in a dimension with no laws of physical space.
Suddenly now billions of thoughts were racing in my mind and I was developing new consciousness over and over again. The voices were gone, but my mind was racing and I craved sound. I put on some music and it’s as though thousands of particles were flying by, each carrying a thought and idea, as the smooth and pleasantly still but slightly fluid waves on my doors, posters, and any moving thing in my room carried beautiful contrails with them. I was absolutely mesmerized by how one second I was on the brink of death and now that I did die I was as blissful, hyper, so ready to learn and create. It was surreal, absolutely surreal. I remember talking to my friends in that state absolutely thrilled to tell them how much I learned and how I truly saw everything and maybe not everything beyond human consciousness in the real world. Then I was referring everything that was in the real world as an alternate reality, as though the reality I was in was the truthful reality. I began to write as I listened to music, and managed to write a good 4-5 pages quite quickly as the edges of my vision danced around. I then went to get up and use the bathroom again to check out my pupils since I could actually process thought to action, and boy when I stood up was I amazed.
*11:30PM, 5 ½ hours in - When I stood up, my legs felt heavy, but I was fluid and everything was sped up by about 300-400%, standing up was done instantly and it carried 6-10 colorful semi-transparent contrails in front and in back of me. I could see it all, it also carried a trance-liquid sound with it, which was super cool. It made this noise whenever I drank water as well.
I remember going to the bathroom, peeing and going back to my bed, and it seemed like I did all of that in 10 seconds, with the contrails too. I was simply amazed. I remember having atleast 5 different pulses that went from the bottom of my tailbone, up my spine and to the top of my head, I could feel each one at a time going up, carrying new layers of knowledge and consciousness with each beat.
One mistake I made was taking these seeds on a schoolnight. Setting and time means everything, and I knew at this point the effects weren’t going to subside any time soon, and I had already missed quite a lot of school as I just got back from travelling, missing a week of school. But I didn’t think much of it, I was enjoying it all too much and soaking in as much as I could.
*12:30AM, 6 ½ hours in - I went downstairs to put some tea on the kettle and relax a bit before trying to sleep. As I went down the stairs, with the contrails still there, my cat walked down the stairs with me at the same time and looked at me. His eyes were bulging and popping and growing and shrinking and flashing, and in those speedy seconds I felt like we exchanged a lifetime’s worth of knowledge, just from that small exchange. No words spoken, but so much learned.
*1:45AM, 7 ¾ hours in - At this point I was ready for bed, but still when closing my eyes I was flooded by thoughts and fractals, not as intense as before, but the sound kept echoing and looping for the entire night. I remember looking left ot right, controlling the pitch of sound as if it was on a ticking dial, right was high pitch, left was low pitch. I played with that for a while which was so incredibly fascinating. At this point I experienced such a cool CEV that I will try to explain, but of course it wiill never do justice to the real thing.
With eyes closed I saw the outline of a sphinx, and inside of that were two Internet-like pages, one set 90 degrees clockwise, and one 90 degrees counterclockwise, both beside each other inside the sphinx, and overlapped was foreign text that I have never seen before. On top of all of that, I had thermal detection in my CEV. Whenever I touched my head, I could see the outline of red from the touch in my CEV and could navigate it too.
Eventually I drifted into a sleep and surprisingly do not remember any dreams.
*6:00AM, 12 hours in - I had to get up and get ready for school. I already knew this wasn’t going to go so well as I was very jittery and felt quite disconnected. I didn’t know how to respond to people in the real world.
I was very jittery and felt quite disconnected. I didn’t know how to respond to people in the real world.
*8:00AM, 14 hours in - I am so glad my math teacher is a rather relaxed guy. I sit at the front of the class and I’m sure my pupils were still wild. I could hear every single conversation in the classroom from every person, which was a bit overwhelming. I just didn’t want to get questioned. I was super jittery and had a very hard time responding to him though during class, and was shaking trying to write. Thoughts weren’t adding up and it was frustrating. After my first class I went home for a couple of hours and slept some more.
*11:00AM, 17 hours in - The true tripping feel is gone of course at this point, but after waking up, quite strangely at this point so far in was when I awoke to super-saturated colors. This lasted for probably 20 minutes and returned back to school by the end of lunch. I felt a bit better after the nap and a bit more in control but still a bit shaky and disconnected. After school I told my friend who’s into the whole psychedelic gig but has yet to have a psychedelic experience. I talked to him about my trip as much as I could and showed him my writing, and went home and slept for a solid 14 hours until the next school day.
Beyond then I felt disconnected still for another day but slowly subsided and it felt good to start eating again and it felt very rewarding being brought back to good physical and mental health. Aside from the pain I think it was one of the most important experiences I have ever had, I think even the pain was good, though I can’t quite comprehend the pain in the real world now as I did before, as goes for the whole trip. Admittedly not having school the next day would have made it much more enjoyable, but I never expected to have prolonged side effects beyond the 12 hour mark. I felt as though the dying part of it was me letting go of so much negativity of the past, which I held onto for quite some time. Over the past 2 two weeks after my trip I have carried such a positive outlook into this “new life” and I feel much happier. I am much more sociable and willing to share a lot of light and abstract thought around me! There is so much beyond us, it is absolutely mesmerizing. Moving forward, I don’t think I would try Morning Glory again but definitely shrooms as I feel the pain took away from enjoying the full experience, but at the same time pain is part of the experience. It is so fascinating just thinking of it all and all these perspectives. I am not a believer in bad trips as I feel that everything is us and we are everything, the myriad of emotion and beyond. Anyways, if you made it through all this I truly thank you for reading. It’s so much and I never knew anything could be so powerful. I have never read a Morning Glory trip report as effective as mine which I think is a bit fascinating.
Exp Year: 2017 | ExpID: 110278 |
Gender: Male | |
Age at time of experience: 18 | |
Published: Jun 20, 2018 | Views: 6,601 |
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