DOSE: T+ 0:00	15-20 g	oral	Amanitas - A. muscaria	(dried)
T+ 0:20	1 bowl	smoked	Cannabis

BODY WEIGHT:

150 lb

I have tried Amanitas once before and they did absolutely nothing to me, so when my friend gave me what I can only estimate was 15-20 grams, I didn't think too much about downing all of it at once. From people I've talked to and from the research I've done on Amanitas, they're not the most visual mushrooms. In fact, I found other's experiences to be a bit underwhelming.

OH BOY WAS I WRONG.

I was recovering from strep throat at the time and I was still taking antibiotics (amoxicillin), although I don't think this had any effect on my trip. My mind was not in a good place prior to the trip, but I'm experienced with psychedelics and I believe they are more useful when I'm in a bad mindset. I was really frustrated with my job, my financial state and life in general. I wasn't happy. I was on a light stomach to avoid nausea when I made myself quite a hefty peanut butter and amanitas shake. It took me about a half hour to down it while playing guitar, and within 20 minutes I was beginning to feel effects. I was feeling a bit queasy, a little sweaty and very focused on the piece I was learning. I started to feel as if there were tiny electrical currents zapping all over my body. I didn't want to smoke weed because I wanted to see what a pure amanitas trip was like, but soon the nausea was too much to handle and I smoked a bowl and felt much better. My bed was calling to me, so I lied down, put on some music and closed my eyes. The tiny electrical currents were slowly getting bigger and bigger. I remember thinking that I could read my thoughts like a book.

And that's the last thing I remember before I woke up a couple hours later and my body was VIBRATING like those little electrical currents had become one giant lightning bolt constantly pulsing through my body. It was almost like an intense salvia or kratom body high. It was incredible. My eyes were still closed but I could see my apartment, except it was like everything was covered in a white blanket, and every lyric from the song that was on was in giant 3D letters circling around my room. It seemed like each song lasted an eternity but it still wasn't long enough. I became the lyrics and I spelled out each letter with my body whilst flying through space. Hands down, the best feeling I've ever felt. Complete bliss. I started having some strange thoughts. I am a devout atheist, but out of the blue, I questioned if I was god.
'Am I god? Is this--is this what god feels like?'
'well, there is no god. Life is meaningless.'

I started spinning into space. I was no longer any lyric or thought from my head. I was nothing. I started to question if life really was meaningless, it didn't feel like the mushrooms wanted me to believe that, but at the same time, they didn't care.
'Are--are my ferrets god?'

The very moment I thought the word ferret, one of my ferrets crawled onto my stomach. I grabbed her and sat up like I just woke up from a nightmare. I opened my eyes and I had no visuals. I realized I was covered in sweat and I was dramatically gasping for air. The particular ferret that happened to crawl over me I had jokingly called demon ferret in the past (she was a biter, could escape from her cage, somehow climbed out of my 2 story window and fell onto concrete without a scratch). This added to the 'holy shit what the fuck'ness of the moment. I seriously questioned if my demon ferret was actually god for a second, let her go and closed my eyes again. I was immediately transported back where I was. One thing that was constantly happening while I was spelling out lyrics and thoughts with my body was that I had to go backwards through the letters for whatever reason. The vibrating in my body felt incredibly sharp and painful. I realized the entire time I was blacked out this was happening. I only woke up when the pain ended and I was in complete bliss. Eventually it switched back to going forwards and I felt amazing again. It taught me that life is going to be really, really shitty sometimes and it's also going to to be fucking amazing. But you can't have the good without the bad.

After a few more hours of this I blacked out again. I woke up, completely sober, a few hours later and immediately puked on myself. I went back to sleep and then puked some more in the morning.

Exp Year: 2017	ExpID: 110655
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 22
Published: Aug 15, 2018	Views: 1,518
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