DOSE:

7 hits

vaporized

MDPV

So I met a guy for sex and he wanted to smoke mdpv because it makes him horny. I was a bit dubious because from previous experience only GHB and amphetamines make me horny but I thought I would try it. At first I got a mild cocaine like buzz from it but then as we redosed I started to get very anxious and jittery and lost all sexual arousal. I felt like there were some nice thoughts floating about but I couldn't reach them to make them mine and I know from past experience that this only leads to trouble. Sure enough after I'd left the guy and got home I was incredibly confused and had trouble holding thoughts and totally struggled with my identity. I tried valium and a shot of rum to calm me down which took a bit of the edge off but I was awake for about 12 hours after getting home and had to call in sick at work. It was like the drug had flicked a reboot switch on my mind but to rebuild my mind was incredibly painful and confusing and I knew that only a good sleep would give me the tools to be able to rebuild myself but that sleep seemed like it would never come. Also, and this is probably the worst part - music and videos didn't help at all, in fact they irritated me so much I had to turn them off and just sit in silence with the maelstrom in my head. Maybe I had taken a bit too large a dose for my first time but this experience has put me off doing it again.

Exp Year: 2017	ExpID: 111206
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 41
Published: Jan 22, 2018	Views: 3,125
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