DOSE: T+ 0:00	1500 mg	oral	Pharms - Gabapentin
T+ 1:30	30 mg	oral	4-AcO-DMT
T+ 1:30	1500 mg	oral	Pharms - Gabapentin
T+ 4:00	30 mg	oral	4-AcO-DMT
T+ 4:00	1500 mg	oral	Pharms - Gabapentin
T+ 0:00	60 mg	oral	4-AcO-DMT
T+ 0:00	1500 mg	oral	Pharms - Gabapentin

BODY WEIGHT:

190 lb

[Erowid Note: The dose described in this report is very high, potentially beyond Erowid's 'heavy' range, and could pose serious health risks or result in unwanted, extreme effects. Sometimes extremely high doses reported are errors rather than actual doses used.]
I got my hands on 250mg of 4-aco-dmt fumarate and had a prescription for gabapentin. I find gabapentin goes well with psychedelics as it really smooths out the come up and enhances euphoria for the ride as a whole. I was in good spirits that night and excited to try this new substance with my wife. I had a carbon based lifeforms play list picked out and it turned out to be a great choice.

We started with a dose of 1500mg gabapentin an hour and 30 minutes before dosing the 4-aco-dmt, so we were already feeling a pleasant euphoria when the initial 30mg doses each hit the scale. We were only planning on a single dose of the 4-aco-dmt, but ended up redosing since we were having such an awesome time.

After taking the first dose we chased it with another 1500 mg of gabapentin each, then layed in bed listening to the music. Within 30 minutes I noticed the music was producing euphoria in my body. Within an hour the music was bringing on very pleasant closed eye visuals. The first I remember distinctly was of a bright glowing neon colored flower set in a deep blue cave. My perspective moving through the cave but my attention fixed on the beautiful flower and on the music.

My eyes were closed most of the time for the first dose to see the awesome vivid imagery. There were some minor visual hallucinations with eyes open but I preferred the robust scenery in my minds eye.

A song came on with a deep rhythmic dark electronic sound. The mental imagery took on a darker hue. There was no anxiety at this change as one might expect. It too was beautiful in a different way. A good part of the night was like an impressionist painting of the music that was alive and morphing behind my eyelids. There was a high level of ever increasing awe and euphoria.

Within 2 hours I had the most profound paradigm altering vision of my life. I say vision but it felt much more like I was downloading information. I have had countless trips with a very wide array of substances, but I have never had a sensation like I was downloading information from an external source before.

The information came as a vision of potential human destiny. I saw shapes of hundreds of people. They took form as body figures of semi-translucent light. They were all in some kind of see-through building. The huge building was set against a black background and there were a bunch of bright lines and that made square and rectangle sections and I could see the people inside. They were busy. They all had a specific intention and were unaware that they were all working towards the same goal. They thought they had their own ambitions, thoughts, ideas, etc. The people were interconnected yet clueless to the endgame.

The perspective zoomed out to a birds eye view of the earth. The earth was covered in these same kinds of buildings filled with the same kinds of busy people. The vision went into fast forward and the buildings and the earth started changing. It was all coming together as one without anyone consciously intending for this merging to take place. The planet birthed some kind of awe inspiring machine entity that jumped off the earth and headed out into the cosmos. The impression was that this newly evolved being was going off to impregnate another planet, to lay an egg of some sort out in space somewhere. It was as if the earth had been a catalyst for this creature's evolution. And there were many more of these creatures in space.

It wasn't a sure thing that this evolution would occur though. I saw the opposite scenario. This time the vision of the earth fast forwarded into a failed evolution and the machine was not born. The planet turned red and died. I felt sad and I saw this as a kind of miscarriage in a way.

Then there was a rewind to the people in the building, but this time it was a close-up on their bright translucent figures. I felt a powerful bond to them in my heart. We had to do our best. We were all connected to the endgame, to the final evolution whether we knew it or not.

I drifted out of the vision with a message to do my best. I was awestruck by the emotional intensity. I shared a condensed version of my vision with my wife then continued to enjoy the music for another 30 minutes or so as the effects started to subside. I asked her if she was having fun and if she wanted to take some more. She did.

I measured another 30mg for each of us and we took 1500mg of gabapentin again as well. It was about 1 am at that time. The redose got me right back up there to the sweet spot again surprisingly. Normally, for me, redoses arent quite as shiny as the first dose. We continued to enjoy the euphoria and visuals for a couple hours. She fell asleep somehow so I was flying solo.

There's a theme that comes up for me oftentimes in mushroom trips. It's like this symbolic web of interconnectedness that I see with eyes closed and open. Its like a semi transparent tapestry of symbols that overlays my visual field. I started to see this recurring hallucination, but this time I was diving deeper into its symbolism. I started to see the pattern as essentially god for lack of a better word. Not the god of any religious affiliation. It was more like the information for the forces that drive everything. Like the computer code for all the different energetic constructs, like people, pine cones, wind, or anything else that makes up our universe.

I was seeing this code represented as a countless array of robust, unintelligible, and fascinating symbols, that were swirling and intermingling with each other. I was struck by a powerful urge to meld with this program and experience it more completely. I wanted to become one with this drive. I wanted a first person perspective of this awesome force, to dive into the kaleidescope of symbols and have the same perspective that it has. I wondered how, then decided a massive dose was the key.

I measured out 60mg and chased it with another 1500mg gabapentin. I figured I was in for one hell of a ride and wanted a change of scenery. I put on my headphones and went and sat on my back porch. The morning's first blue light was beginning to show. I wasn't tired at all. I was determined to enter that web of symbols.

I really lost track of time but as the sun came up the music became very intense. Looking at the trees was fascinating. They shimmered with intention, everything did. I started feeling like I needed to do something to ensure the planets proper evolution. I was still reeling from the vision download earlier that night and I desperately wanted the planet to birth that machine creature so it could jump off into the cosmos.

I started losing self control in the experience. The best way I can describe it is like having something you're trying to say on the tip of your tongue but you just cant put it together and say it. Only I wasn't trying to say anything, I was trying to do something that would influence whether the planet would evolve properly or not. I just couldn't figure out what to do. I felt like I knew what to do and it was right there in the back of my mind, but I couldn't get to it. I was literally on the very edge of my seat.

There came to be a presence in my backyard. It had white wispy lights trailing it and that's all I ever got to see. I could feel its mind-blowing power and catch glimpses, but only in my peripheral vision. When I even began to think about looking in its direction it was as if my body was no longer under my control and my head was lowered in submission despite any attempt to raise it. I wouldn't f****** DARE look directly at this thing. It felt like it was the first person consciousness of 'web of life' manifested in some hallucinatory form. It was the very air in my lungs and the beat of my heart and it let me know that, not in a menacing way, in a powerful way, I was extremely intimidated.

It communicated with me nonverbally. It was everything. It knew that I wanted to meld with it. It told me I was already part of it. It showed me that I couldn't experience fully what I wanted to experience fully without dying. It left me.

Exp Year: 2018	ExpID: 111461
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 27
Published: Jan 29, 2018	Views: 5,891
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