DOSE:	500 mg	oral	Diphenhydramine	(daily)
			Alcohol

BODY WEIGHT:

230 lb

I spent over a year habitually taking at least 500 mgs of Benadryl a day. I have read many trip reports, and I can say that not many reflect my experiences.

I never spoke to invisible people, as seems common in many trip reports. But I know this drug messed me up. I would routinely take 20, yes, 20, pills of Benadryl a day (25mgs each pill), if not more. I had no job. I had no responsibilities. I was fortunate to be able to waste my days away tripping my brains out.

At the outset, I would say to stay away from this drug. But that doesn't matter to me; when I have it, I will take it with no question. This is because I will take anything that will transport me from reality. My own shortcoming.

I have noticed that through long-term, habitual use, my memory has tanked like you wouldn't believe. I had a bad memory anyway from previous years of DXM abuse, but DPH has made it considerably worse. I can't remember things that have happened only less than a week ago, now. I know DPH is the cause.

Most of my DPH trips I wouldn't even categorize as trips. I took it to escape, to feel different from how I do normally. I would start my days with around 400-500 mgs of Benadryl. I do NOT recommend this dosage for the average psychonaut.

The most profound effect is the overwhelming fatigue. Everyone knows that Benadryl makes you tired. This stuff made me collapse on the floor with overwhelming tiredness. Sleep was blissful. It interrupted everything. I was useless.

The second most profound effect I noticed was how fucking fantastic I felt physically. I am a lover of opiates. DPH does not feel like opiates, but it has a lovely body high all its own. I feel buzzy, energized, with this drug, which is weird because it simultaneously makes me feel so tired.

But that tiredness, after the third or so day of being constantly tripping, melts away. After this, I feel like I need the drug just to function. I feel powerful, invincible on it. I know amphetamines. This is not like amphetamines... but it feels close, body wise. Suddenly I can deal with my day. Suddenly I feel capable.

But there are downsides. I can say honestly that I never talked to invisible people, saw non-existent things. But I would talk like a fantastically out-of-touch crazy person. I have scared friends and loved ones with my nonsensical ramblings. And I KNOW when I'm talking crazy - but I can't help it. I had one of these episodes in front of a close friend while we were drinking and was luckily able to pass it off as being too drunk, but she said I was talking 'entertainingly but alarmingly'. I didn't know what I was saying but I knew i was having the hardest time getting it out.

Be careful with this drug. I have become habituated to it and psychologically addicted. If I have it, I WILL abuse it. I love that fucked up feeling. But it messes with me. I say crazy things to people around me when I'm on it.

Exp Year: 2018	ExpID: 111702
Gender: Not Specified
Age at time of experience: 36
Published: Dec 15, 2018	Views: 4,603
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