DOSE:

3 bowls

smoked

Leonurus sibiricus

I decided to try smoking as many bowls of Leonurus sibiricus as I could tonight in order to compare it to the Leonotis leonurus I had tried a few nights back.

Mood before: Sleep deprived and irritable
Mood after: Pure blissful joy and happiness
Time frame: 30 minutes
Other substances: 274mg Caffeine 10 hours previously.
Administration device: Smoking using a spoon pipe

This time I did not expect the results I ended up with as compared to my previous trials of one or two bowls. I smoked my first bowl casually while walking and felt the initial mood improvement, slight disorientation, and cognitive enhancement characteristic of this substance. I then started my second bowl towards the end of the walk finishing it standing around at which point I began to felt significantly floaty and hazy. I'd compare it to a nicotine high or being lightly stoned in terms of impairment except without stimulation or euphoria of dopamine. I then smoked my third bowl sitting. After this I proceeded to walk around a bit more my mind beginning to day dream vividly before heading inside. Upon doing so I layed down and was already feeling the effects but wasn't putting them together until then. I am an individual with gender dysphoria and depression. My gender dysphoria was completely erased at that point and I could only feel an indescribably surreal love of myself and I felt fully at one with my true gender. I wanted to cry it was so overwhelming joyous and blissful. I didn't feel depressed at all either. All I felt was happy. I just kept repeating to myself how happy I was to be my gender and how I am me now.

I don't expect most people to grasp this. But the comfort and joy is something I never expected to feel. I don't expect most people to feel this. I wasn't. I am only writing this so others can build from it.

Exp Year: 2018	ExpID: 112384
Gender: Not Specified
Age at time of experience: 19
Published: Sep 18, 2018	Views: 2,269
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