DOSE: T+ 0:00		oral	Smarts - Phenibut	(daily)
T+ 0:00		oral	Amphetamines	(daily)
T+ 0:00	20 mg	oral	4-HO-MET
T+ 1:00	10 mg	oral	4-HO-MET

4-HO-MET (The Lime Liquid Trip)

T – 12:00 PM 10mg d-amp Sulfate + 400mg Phenibut HCL
T – 4:00 PM 10mg Dextroamphetamine Sulfate + 400mg Phenibut HCL
T – 8:00 PM 10mg Dextroamphetamine Sulfate + 400mg Phenibut HCL
T – 10:15 PM 20mg 4-HO-MET
T – 11:15 PM 10mg 4-HO-MET

Previous relevant drug experiences: Mushrooms, LSD, MDMA, MDA, Methylone, Cocaine, methylphenidate, d-amphetamine, lisdexamfetamine, Cannabis, ppap, (other nootropic research chems not worth listing), Benzodiazepines: (Clonazepam, Lorazepam, Alprazolam, Diazepam), Opioids (Hydrocodone, Tramadol, Oxymorphone, Oxycodone, Hydromorphone, Meperidine, and Kratom), Phenibut, and Ketamine

I am dependent on Phenibut and take d-amp daily for ADHD.

My prior most recent psychedelic experience before that was 2016 (i.e., no tolerance). Kids spending the weekend at Grandma's.

T - 10:15 PM
My wife and I consume 20mg of 4-HO-MET. My wife elects to put on a movie (Wonder Woman, 1984).

T- 11:00 PM
My wife is feeling the effects of the compound coming on rapidly. She feels a bit nauseated. Her yawning has increased, and her eyes begin to water. She tells me the world is looking HD, and shadows are exaggerated. (She is at a +1)

My mood is lifted, and I am feeling slightly warm. Colors are enhanced. I am at threshold +/-.

T – 11:10 PM
My wife elects she would rather listen to music, and I let her determine the play list. We have a wooden rocking horse in our living room that creeps out my wife. She says she feels as though it is watching her and chuckles at the thought. She decides to cover it with a towel; this makes her feel better.

For her walls are now breathing, and fractals are appearing. She is rapidly progressing to +++.

No change in perception yet for me.

T – 11:15 PM
I decided that I will take another 10mg as the effects were still barely perceptible except for an increased appreciation of music.

Note: I have ADHD and take prescription stimulants (d-amp) daily; the d-amp alters my digestion. Sometimes my digestive process is slow to initiate. I believe this is why my prolonged onset is relevant to the Rocketship that I am about to board.

T - 11:20 PM
At this point, I step away from my wife and take a moment to enjoy the fresh air out on our balcony. I enter +1 territory.

I look out at the pine trees from my balcony and think that I have gotten too far away from nature and that I need to commit to spending more time communing with its beauty. It is my responsibility as a father to provide my children with the opportunity to experience nature's glory. As seemingly profound thoughts circling through my mind, the outline intersecting pine branches are vibrantly highlighted. The multi-hued intersecting lines then expand outward in pace with each revelatory thought.

T – 11:25
I return to our living room and notice that the floor is painted with static fractals bearing a striking resemblance to those of the Shipibo-Conibo people. My headspace is rocketed rapidly to ++/+++ less than 10 minutes after ingesting the additional 10mg, and the dreaded question pop into my mind: "Did I make a mistake." I mention this to my wife. She assures me that everything will be okay. I feel grateful for her in my life.

T – 11:35
From this point, I lose track of time till 2:30 AM.

I have rapidly progressed to +++. My vision is severely impaired, and I begin to forget who I am. I pace throughout the apartment, hoping to find an area where I feel more at ease. On LSD, usually, if I change the room I am in, my mood can improve significantly. This, unfortunately, does not work for me on psilocin or its analogs.

My wife tries to console me, but I only feel worse, worrying that I am ruining her experience. Fortunately, we are very in tune with each other. She understands that I need to be left to my own devices. She checks in periodically. With eyes open, 3D fractal structures warp, bleed, and transform, painting the outside world. Clear thought ceases—an undertone of intense anxiety that verges on panic for some duration.

~ between 15 minutes -1 hour later
I find my wife sitting in the dark in our walk-in closet. She is at a strong +++ yet calm and thoroughly enjoying herself. She beckons me to sit with her. She holds me and tries to distract me from my anxiety. I tell her how deeply grateful I am for her. I tell her she is such a protector to me and a wonderful mother to her children. I have the feeling that I hope she views me as her protector and commits myself to be the best protector I can.

I am too stressed to sit still any longer, and I tell my wife that I am thirsty. Without hesitation, she grabs my hand and leads me to the kitchen. She makes limeade for use.

~ Lime Liquid
At this point, I still have no understanding of time, but consuming the "Lime Liquid" punctuated the experience. So, I will use this as a timepoint.

My wife returns to her closet. "You know what this closet is?" she said, "No, what?" I reply. "THIS CLOSET IS AUDACIOUS!!" she exclaimed. I am finally able to let go. I lie on my bed and transcend. My ego dies. There is only awareness. My body, the world, anxiety, bliss, thoughts of my life, of my wellbeing, of my death, and concept entirely disappear. There are no words to capture this. Truly ineffable. Full ++++.

T – 2:30 AM
I notice the time at this point and am still tripping quite hard. Compared to transcendence it seems minor (++/+++). The rest of the trip does not merit describing. My wife falls asleep at 4:00 AM and me at 5:00 AM.

Exp Year: 2020	ExpID: 115097
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 29
Published: Jan 28, 2021	Views: 1,057
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