DOSE:	3 glasses	oral	Alcohol - Beer/Wine
	1 g	oral	Benzydamine	(pill / tablet)

BODY WEIGHT:

62 kg

Oh boy it's been a long time since I did this stupid thing. Benzydamine brand name tantum was available without prescription back then. We have seen some trip reports on the internet and want to try this psychedelic demon pills. We were young, dumb and full of energy and a box of tantum was like a dollar. So one day I got some beers and decided to get tantum from a local pharmacy. We were 3 and I bought 3 boxes of tantum each containing 20 pills as 50 mg each. We chug the beers in an hour or so and decided to swallow 20 pills each at once. We have done this before but on much lower doses we could barely call it a trip.

Most common effect of tantum is seeing trails behind moving objects. After 30 minutes or so we were just waving our hands to see some trails to be sure of that if it was kicking in. After 45 min. - 1 hr later, trails were happening every moving object looked like that scene from matrix where neo dodging bullets by leaning back. And some mild hallucinations of shadows were happening but not that much noticeable.

After 1.5 or so hallucinations were getting harder but hallucinations caused by tantum is not like acid or shrooms. It was happening outside of my focus so every hallucination was on the corner of my eye and when I move my focus to hallucination it gets disappeared. As I said we were dumb what is the point of taking hallucinogens if you cant watch them. And those hallucinations were mostly shadows or some small animals like rats or snakes. More objects in the room more hallucinations happening and our living room was full of trash.

2 hrs later effects stays the same and paranoia kicks in for everyone else and it is the worst part of this substance. We all know it but still doing it. It's not like having an anxiety over a drug, tantum paranoia is something beyond anxiety. I remember that 3 of us put our backs to each other to go to the toilet because we were full of fear since we can't see our back. We don't know what we are scared of but a strong fear was there and it will haunt us for the next 12 hours.

4 hr later effects starts to peak and I was loosing my sense of self. Because of the paranoia I decided to put my back on the corner of room and fold my legs to my chest and hug them. Suddenly I feel a hand on my back, cold sweat rushing through my neck. I was amused by the light trails, and shadows moving around the house also feeling a chaotic unknown fear. I was on a couch and my friend was on my right side and he had windowed balcony door on his right. I was gazing into the balcony and seeing someone sitting on chair with his back against me. I was like " who the hell is this sitting in balcony" for awhile and person in balcony turned his face to me I was sweating cold again. And I realized it was just reflection of my friend.

5 hr - we had to drink a lot of fluids because of cotton mouth. I was shifting in and out of consciousness and I wasn't able to tell if I was on something or I was sober. I decided to chat with my friend. I don't really remember what it was about but I remember the key parts. I was talking to him and he said " Why did you stop, go on what happened after? " I said " what are you talking about? I didn't say anything." and I said " What would you do?" He replied "What would I do? What are you asking about ?" I just said " I forgot what I was talking about". He replied again " You were not talking for the last half an hour dude". I started to panic from inside, thinking that I lost my mind and couldn't relax. I was listening to music on the speakers and it was going 5x faster and 5x slower randomly. I wasn't able to follow the music. I wasn't able to tell how long it has been. We were just feeling anxious, depressed and gazing on the walls. We were constantly checking around, thinking there is something behind us all the time.

6-8 hr - effects starts to diminish and we were feeling like shit and exhausted. I wanted to sleep but I couldn't. When I closed my eyes I was having huasca visuals. Seeing faces or some spinning geometric spirals.

12-36 hr - I didn't experience any hallucinations but visual disturbance was still there. I kept seeing trails of moving objects and shadowy reflections around them. Until it has been 36 hr I didn't sleep at all. I couldn't eat. My dick was like 5x smaller. I couldn't take a shit. My eyes were bloodshot and had small brown spots under my feet.

After years later I did some stupid drugs/meds. Mostly binge benzo use recently but I won't do tantum even if you pay me. It is hallucinogenic but it's not recreational at all. If it wasn't causing paranoia and sleeplessness it would be awesome but it is dangerous and a dumb way to get high. Now it's a prescription medicine and not popular at all. 3 of us did that drug several times and in long term we didn't suffer and physical disturbances and 2 of my friends are healthy both physically and mentally. But I suffer from constant anxiety since then. It is hard to relate this situation alone with tantum but it might trigger what was hidden in me.

It's nightmarish and not worth it.

Exp Year: 2012	ExpID: 115176
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 18
Published: Mar 24, 2021	Views: 1,549
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