DOSE:

oral

Deschloroketamine

At first the dose was too low, so I poured water in the almost empty baggie that had dust particles of DCK all over it and drank it in an attempt to get to another level.

It was a good 20 minutes later that I started to feel so intense in my body, that it started to become metallic fluid immersed in ether with non geometric cubes. I started to dissipate. It was as if my body slowly shifted into my mind and became smooth metal spinning infinitely around a cube which was constantly changing shape.

It was like a psychedelic screensaver, but slowly it got more intense. It went faster and faster and deeper into dark endlessness. I felt like I exploded. There was this huge metallic heart in infinite darkness, with my perspective deepening into it. It was complete love. Ta-daa. It was all love. I was love. I gasped in awe. I knew I've done it this time, but I loved it.

It really changed my mind. I knew I had to listen to my heart from now on. I could create love from nothingness and keep it alive. I knew then, that love really comes from within and can be felt at any time in every reality.

I had the feeling of breaking a woman's heart. I want to apologise. I felt betrayal of brothers. I accepted it. It was the past revealing itself to me in a moment where I could deal with it. Immensely therapeutic. I could accept my flaws and my traumas without feeling a thing except acceptance.

Then I thought that somehow I was cheating and will be punished. I saw the rubic's cube of life and now I will suffer. I accepted it. I saw birds flying and changing. I was drifting through environments as a pure observer with no external thought. It felt like I was going really really fast, just flying through complete dream scenes. That includes a table and I was flying as a small particle over it. Then there were tunnels and rails. So many environments that I cant even remember.

Everything was non-geometric. There wasnt a single pattern repeating, it was all pure chaotic metallic fluid dreaming itself awake. With open eyes I saw my room do strange dislocations of matter. I would look into my LED lights and they started to change into completely different structures. Almost like some kind of dream matter. My room was more like a dream slowly fading away.

I felt my environment become cubic. Everything I could see had defragmented slightly. Non geometric cube structures. My bodily perception was nice and smooth, very anesthetized.

I hallucinated strongly for a couple hours and I was pleasantly dissociated. I knew I had seen the truth and I was all of this. It was as if I was dreaming 10 dreams at once all relevant to each other. I was very manic, but so anesthetized that it didn't bother me at all. It was all very fast, but it felt safe and slow at the same time. Almost paradoxical, almost impossible.

This whole existence felt like a rubic's cube and the answer is to find what you love.

DCK is a very interesting compound. I had some bladder pain until sleeping but was fine in the morning (I was using almost everyday in low doses for months before having any pain). I do feel that the positives do outweigh the negatives and this substance can be an all round tool, either for recreational use or therapeutic.

Exp Year: 2021	ExpID: 115188
Gender: Not Specified
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Feb 16, 2022	Views: 915
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