DOSE: T+ 0:00	14 mg	oral	5-MeO-MIPT
T+ 0:40	30 mg	oral	5-MAPB

BODY WEIGHT:

128 lb

I am going into this experience feeling a lot of stress about college, coming out of an argument with my family yet I felt a lot better than I did before. I was tired of waiting for the right day to trip, and spontaneously chose to take this compound. I am alone in my room, ready for an adventure inward.

11:50PM

I weighed out 14mg 5-MeO-MiPT and put it into a gel cap. This was my very last dose of this compound remaining, I’ve used it a lot in the past but it has been about 4-5 months. I played on my Xbox while listening to music as I awaited the come up. I began to question whether I really wanted to take this dose when I was already stressed about my parents. But I’m always stressed, so no better time than tonight, right?

The initial effects came on within 40 minutes. I felt my body tense up, butterflies in my stomach and general discomfort. At the same time, an all encompassing warmth filled by mind and body. Effects kept growing stronger as I waited around in bed. Mainly I can’t sit still and I am becoming more and more aware of how heavy this trip is going to be.

It is currently 12:30AM, the effects have been continually growing in intensity by the second. The visuals don’t match the intense body load, but they are still very strong. I am seeing colors combine, fractals develop and move across my field of view and warping/breathing of my surroundings. The body load is the worst part, It takes immense amounts of energy to walk around. I wonder if I will get what I want out of this experience. I felt like it was missing something and I only felt more stressed about life events. Without much consideration I decided I'm not feeling the euphoria I was hoping for and went back into my stash and found 5-MAPB. As I weigh 30mg, I can’t help but struggle to move at the same pace without feeling exhausted and uncomfortable. I try to encapsulate it and ingest it as quickly as possible to avoid moving for any longer.

12:45AM
The body load became so intense I can no longer bring myself to get out of bed. The 5-MAPB definitely began coming up as I continued playing on my Xbox. Music is becoming noticeably more enjoyable, but my head is too foggy to pay attention to the Xbox. Regret has been lingering since I dosed the moxy, I wish I could have thought more about the body load beforehand.

1:30AM
The intense stoning brain-fog outweighs the visuals, which have been comparable to around 2 grams of shrooms. I’m no longer capable of walking, typing, or sitting upwards. I lay back, and feel my body tension loosen up like a ragdoll. My room is painted with beautiful colors and geometry moving like it has a mind of its own. I felt like I was nodding out, yet there weren't as many closed eye visuals as I would’ve expected considering the debilitating effects I can't escape from. The moment I allowed myself to let go of my own body, euphoria slowly flowed through my body and mind. It was almost as If I was laying alone, in my own skull. Locked in the dark depths of my self I felt intimate, with my own soul. I finally was able to accept myself for who I was. In a way which I never truly allowed myself to feel in my entire life. I accepted all the events in my life and appreciated them for what they are. I saw all the good in all the bad. Lost in my mind, the body load was no longer bothering me to the same degree. I no longer want to feel immobilized and challenge myself to get up and return to the Xbox.

2:00AM
I’ve become fully immersed into GTA V, having the time of my life just driving around while blasting music in my earbuds. I feel complete, and confident behind all my decisions and in my own future. The body load has significantly decreased and I feel more than comfortable walking around my room, using the bathroom, etc.

4:00AM
At this point, the effects have begun to come down and I experience a slow onset of mental dysphoria yet I really enjoyed the rest of my morning. I reflect on my own mental health and history of suicidal ideation. I experience vivid visions of what could have happened in the past, and what could have happened to other people. There are so many emotions filling my body as I watch the events fold out before and after that happens. I feel brief intense, almost unbearable regret and sadness, wishing I could help myself and others when they needed it the most. I drown in the genuine grief of losing myself and everything I love which I didn't understand until this moment.

This didn't last long, and I honestly think it was good for me to experience that weight and grief which I never truly allowed myself to understand beforehand. I remembered how much I really want to live life, and take in every moment I have ahead of me.

If I could go back, I definitely would have taken less 5-MeO-MiPT given the intense body load. If you do not have tolerance, high doses of Moxy usually will never be worth it.

Exp Year: 2021	ExpID: 115617
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 18
Published: Sep 14, 2021	Views: 767
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