DOSE:

1 hit

vaporized

Toad Venom

BODY WEIGHT:

140 lb

Road to the Toad

So my bday weekend I went to Shasta with a friend and a Shaman friend. We did a toad ceremony. In a rented house we all sat in the living room. It was my turn to go.

Upon inhaling the toad and holding for 20 seconds. Tasted like a toad or frog. Immediately a warm sense rushed in and down my body. I felt body heavy and comfortable and at ease, no worries. I felt as I was falling yet at the same time flying in a void or space. With my eyes closed, algorithmic shapes and colors and patterns were vivid. Like a fractal universe. Reaching the center point was a figure, not god, but a higher being in female form. I felt no fear. I knew I would safe and in good hands. Because I felt comfortable I went in to fetal position. I felt I was back in the womb, my mothers womb, warm, safe, and nurtured. Switching fetal positions and even baby pose. I couldn’t not think of my mother. Teared up a bit and had a close cry as I thought of her. But how close I felt to her. Slowly still feeling comfort and safe I began to move more, changing different positions laying down as if I was being reborn and removing myself from the womb. I slowly sat up. Coming out of a sleepy hazy I felt more awake. Being born again. I was quiet like a fetus the whole session. This lasted about 8 mins.

Everyone has a different experience and episodes on the road to the toad. Depending on their journey in life, the experience be scary and dark or heavy and even comforting to some. Because I’m the youngest in my family. And my mother is in ill health. I felt a deep connection to my mother. I can’t say what you’ll experience but for me this was a positive emotional experience. But I can say I’m not as afraid of death as I once was.

Exp Year: 2022	ExpID: 116481
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 36
Published: Aug 1, 2022	Views: 449
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