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Combatdoll Bliss
5-MeO-MALT
Citation:   Dollvoid. "Combatdoll Bliss: An Experience with 5-MeO-MALT (exp118359)". Erowid.org. Oct 27, 2024. erowid.org/exp/118359

 
DOSE:
2 mg insufflated 5-MeO-MALT (powder / crystals)
BODY WEIGHT: 65 kg
This was my first trip experience with 5-MeO-MALT (I have seen it referred to as "puppy" or "puppydrug", so I'll use that). I went into this with the goal of getting a first touchstone with puppy* before going on trips with friends! For the record, I'm a transfem furry :3

I went into this with some time pressure as I had to pick some friends up in about 1.5 hours after dropping (not by car). Before the trip, I read a robot short story I greatly enjoyed. It also was erotica writing, so I went into this only 10 minutes after having an orgasm (this will be relevant).

Considering my unfamiliarity with the substance and the time pressure, I went for a very low dose.
Considering my unfamiliarity with the substance and the time pressure, I went for a very low dose.
For the entirety of the trip, I was alone in my apartment.

Rough timeline:
- T+0
Measured 2mg with a diamond scale, insufflated

- T+30 s - 1 min after insufflation: I start feeling effects
My only other psychedelic experience before this had been LSD, so this hit me like a very gentle truck with how rapidly it onset.

The best way I can describe the feeling during the height of the trip is a feeling of one-ness with myself. Like my body and identity and everything were one cohesive unit the size of me. I've taken LSD before, sometimes resulting in the the sensation of fractals or other geometry exuding from my skin. This felt like the opposite of that, as if my bodily form was even more solid and sealed than when sober.

During the peak of this stage, I also grasped my one thought: I assume due to the fic I read right before the trip, my one thought ended up being that of a combatdoll headspace. My identity shifted to me considering adopting it/its pronouns, which I never felt comfortable with before, and even the doll-like 3rd person way of thinking came naturally to me during and after the experience. ("I am comfortable" -> "It is comfortable")

I was listening to music via my loudspeakers during the entire experience, and being physically active in any capacity was extremely difficult. I just laid on my couch and occasionally texted people on my phone. Finding words or making references to past/other conversations was especially difficult here.

Visually, I already at this dose reached the effect of pixels becoming very soft and antialiased / blurry / bloomy.

In terms of mood, I have to add that this experience was exceptionally positive. Since this was my first experience I don't have a control trip, but I definitely felt more sexually forward and open. If this was because of my orgasm right before the trip, I cannot say. Flirting and teasing others via text went very smooth, with fewer inhibitions than sober.

- T+90 min
The strongest effects are basically gone now, and I feel functionally sober. The bus ride I needed to take at this point went as usual, save for a slight feeling of floatiness that I would describe similar to the difficulty of thinking while sleep-deprived.

- T+3 h
I definitely am sober again. No large aftershocks or anything. I go about the rest of my day with my friends as usual.


*An aside: The reason I read that it's called "puppy" is because it can supposedly help you stay in pupspace if you enter it beforehand, and all other thoughts will float away from you like gasoline on water. That was an accurate description for me here too.

Exp Year: 2024ExpID: 118359
Gender: Not Specified 
Age at time of experience: 23
Published: Oct 27, 2024Views: 15
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