DOSE:

repeated

oral

MDMA

(pill / tablet)

BODY WEIGHT:

125 lb

I used MDMA very frequently. On average, I would use the drug two to three times a month for about a year and a half.

At first it was good times with good friends but then, all the fun was gone. The last 10 or so times were like a big downward spiral. I would usually start the same as I had in the past. I would buy lots of water, gum, glow sticks, etc. Get together my cd's. We would either head to an afterhours club or a house party. I would only start with one pill, wait 20 minutes until I peaked and downed another. After the second, I just ate them like candy until I spent all my money. (5 to 15 pills per use, a hundred or more dollars a night.) I just wanted to keep that fuzzy warm feeling. I have never had an addictive nature until I started coming down from X. The high that I got just wasn't enough.

I started smoking weed and snorting K to help the high return. I felt like such a crack head. Needing something that bad made the high not fun anymore. It was more like a chore. I got sick several times. I think the worst part of the whole 'losing the magic' was when my friends and I did it the last three or four times, I hated seeing them, the people I loved to death, so far out of reality. That's what ended it for me.

My personal experiences on X were unforgetable, some close to being the best time I ever had, but as we all know 'nothing lasts forever'.

Exp Year: 2002	ExpID: 20819
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Sep 23, 2017	Views: 1,274
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