DOSE:	10 mg	oral	Pharms - Escitalopram	(daily)
	5.0 g	smoked	Cannabis	(plant material)

BODY WEIGHT:

130 lb

It was a sunday night in february with nothing to do as usual. I was out with my friend getting high...the usual, only tonight was different. The last couple of nights were different. I had been recently prescribed to the antidepressant Lexapro (escitalopram oxalate) 10 mg. My doctor told me that the most common side effect was nausua. so I was okay with that, I had already had my experience of antidepressants, been on zoloft and effexor for a 5 year period. My depression has really been taking over my life lately.

I am currently out of school, and just lost my job a week ago. I think to myself that its just bad luck, but really I think its the laziness and calling into work that got me here. My doctor put me on a more powerful dose of a different pill. so here I am now, high as hell sitting here just after smoking a blunt, then another 2 joints during the 1 hour long simpsons episode. I can't stop thinking about how weird everythign around me has been the last couple of days. I find myself almost in my own world all the time, I never hear whats really going on, conversation wise, I just have a really hard time following people when they are trying to tell me something, [Erowid Note: Driving while intoxicated, tripping, or extremely sleep deprived is dangerous and irresponsible because it endangers other people. Don't do it!] driving I can't stop and think that a deer with huge antlers is going to run out in front of my car and take my life, I see all of the details while I'm ina dream like state while I'm on the road home...trying to make it home safe.

I think to myself that someone is in my back seat waiting for me when I least expect it, even though before I got into my car I checked the area around me because I felt like somebody was out there, watching me, I dont know its weird...I jsut dont feel like I am really alone, I am only 2 minutes away from home, sso high that I briefly wait in my driveway for my visine to take the redness out..and my mind is somewhere else, yes! and here I go again running to the front door because I feel like someone is chasing me!! I come inside to put on my opajamas, turn on my cd player to listen to some jack johnson ...this will mellow me out, I get a glass of water, sit down in my living room with my parents and felt very out of place..I wanted to just crawl in a hole and die, I felt very negative vibes from them....at htis point all I want to do is give my mom a big hug, I want her comfort but I find myself comign here to my computer to share my experience.

This one will hopefully be the last because im telling my doctore tomorrow that these pills are no good!!

Exp Year: 2003	ExpID: 21169
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: May 10, 2006	Views: 20,858
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