DOSE:

oral

MDMA

(pill / tablet)

BODY WEIGHT:

175 lb

I took X for many years, mostly on weekends. It got to a point where I needed 2-3 pills just to get high. On Monday's after I came down my head would be vacant and I could not concentrate. By Tuesday I was so depressed that I would cry for no specific reason. Usually by Thursday I would be ok again, but I would go right back into the same routine on Friday. Eventually, I was diagnosed as clinically depressed. I have been on anit-depressants for about a year.

I was not physically addicted but I am sure that I was emotionally addicted to X. I think the mood lifting effect was needed to escape my depression, but the ultimate result was that I became more depressed. I have not used the drug for over a year and sometimes I have nastalgic memories of the 'good' times, but overall I am much happier now and it is a real happiness!

Exp Year: 1998	ExpID: 2413
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Oct 14, 2000	Views: 17,811
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