DOSE:	40 mg	oral	Pharms - Fluoxetine	(daily)
	1 mg	oral	Pharms - Alprazolam
		oral	Mushrooms	(daily)
		oral	Mushrooms

BODY WEIGHT:

53 kg

Prozac and Psychedelics

I just finished reading 'Food of the Gods' by Terence McKenna. I have been taking a lot of acid but haven't had any shrooms for a long time. I used to take shit loads of acid with the help of xanax to stop me from freaking out and getting into a bad trip. Somewhere in my head I was ashamed of this. I felt that every psychedelic experience is holy and that I am somewhat cheating when taking pharmaceuticals along with it. I heard that prozac diminishes the effect of LSD as well so I was willing to give it a go with mushrooms without the safety net of xanax. I have been on 40mg of prozac for roughly two years now. Prozac is not supposed to diminish the effects of the trip like it does for acid.

The first few hours of the trip was great. I was sitting in a beautiful park and enjoying the beauty surrounding me. Then I got back home. The Simpsons was on tv. This is when it started to go down hill. In my opinion tv on psychedelics is not a good idea but it couldn't really be helped since other people were in the room who weren't tripping enjoying tv. I ended up running into the toilet feeling horrible about the fact that I have been on prozac for three years in total. I think mushrooms are a sacred plant. As Bill Hicks says, it squeegees your third eye so you can see through it again. It really made me want to quit taking prozac. My other friends are habitual xanax users. I felt so full of hate that I was dependent on such a drug. Prozac has done many wonderful things in my life but I really do believe that there are way better ways to take care of your problems rather than numbing it out. I was so upset at myself I started cutting my really long hair in the bathroom contemplating suicide. I ran out of the toilet. Since no one else was tripping they got freaked out by what I did with my long hair. I told them that everything had to be stopped. All those pharmaceuticals that we take everyday just to be able to handle everyday life.

After this stage I went through serious hell in my mind. I felt no one understood me so I ran to a filthy alley way covered in bird shit for an hour petrified. I felt I was in a hell. Not hell in a traditional sense, but a kind of hell that is cushioned and prozaced so we won't have to confront serious issues we may be having. A sterile, cold hell if you will. A comfort to the point of pain. Although it was a hellish experience, I am glad that now I am on the way of quitting my prozac. I don't believe drugs are the answer to my problems. I may feel good for the first year or so but I find myself needing to increase the dosage to get back to how it was when I was on 20mg. Thanks to my hellish trip, I know feel the courage and necessity to slowly cut down till I can quit my addiction.

Exp Year: 2004	ExpID: 35929
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Mar 2, 2021	Views: 1,835
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