DOSE:

Oxycodone

Oxycontin or O.C., as everyone I know calls it, is my best friend and my worst enemy. Let me explain.
O.C. started to become very popular where I live, though I had never tried it. Eventually my curiosity got the best of me, so I bought 20 mgs for $25. I thought this had better be worth it to pay so much. It was worth every penny. I had tried several different drugs, but nothing before or after has ever compared to O.C. I was a little scared the first time, not knowing what to expect(I had never done any pain pills before). I did get a little warm and nauseous, but I didn't care. It didn't bother me-nothing bothered me.

For me, O.C. is about how it makes me feel on the inside. I feel confident, happy, completely in control. I have energy when I first snort the drug, but then when I'm ready to go to sleep, I can sleep so peacefully. I feel so happy and content with my life that nothing can bother me. I can think and know what's going on in my mind and can make decisions, but I'm so happy that if something does go wrong, I just deal with it and I know everything will be O.K. I'm so optimistic, and normally I'm so negative. I do enjoy sitting and watching T.V.(I enjoy everything when I do O.C.s), but I also get things done when I do O.C.s. I study and go to work. I usually do very well on the exams I take while on O.C.s and have never had a complaint at work. (And no I'm not suggesting that for everyone) I should also say I have used O.C.'s on and off for about 5 years now, so I know I react differently than people who are just starting the drug. It is the most powerful, yet absolutely wonderful, drug I have ever encountered.

That brings me to why I would dare say Oxycontin is also my enemy. It is simply because if I could I would snort O.C. everyday for the rest of my life and that is just not possible. The drug is expensive. I think it is more expensive here than in some areas of the country. An 80mg pill is $100-$120. Yes, my friends and I pay it, and yes it is worth more than that to me, but I also live in the real world where I just simply can not afford to do the pill like I would wish. So, that is O.C.'s only downfall to me-just that I can't do it everytime I want to. And that comes with consequences. I'm not fooling anyone-I've been using the drug for five years-I'm not a recreational user. O.C.s are a big part of my life-something I still look forward to and get excited about. On the flipside, you all know that also means when I can't do the drug I go through withdrawel. I don't get physically sick, but I often can't sleep. I think that's the worst part-tossing and turning, knowing if I had the drug I could sleep so peacefully. The other thing is the way I feel unmotivated without the drug-it sometimes becomes difficult to motivate myself to get up and go to class or to work, without the drug. If I had the drug I could do extra work and take up extra curricular activities. :) But that is just not possible. I love life to the fullest when I snort an O.C., and most of the time I could care less about life when I don't, and that is why O.C.s are my best friend and my worst enemy.

Exp Year: 2004	ExpID: 38194
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Jan 5, 2021	Views: 1,451
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