An Accidental Near Death Experience
5-MeO-DMT & Leonotis leonurus
Citation: sepulfreak. "An Accidental Near Death Experience: An Experience with 5-MeO-DMT & Leonotis leonurus (exp38218)". Erowid.org. Aug 2, 2005. erowid.org/exp/38218
DOSE: |
5.0 mg | smoked | 5-MeO-DMT | |
smoked | Leonotis leonurus | (tar / resin) |
BODY WEIGHT: | 155 lb |
Mindset: Reasonable mood, though having mild to moderate Opiate/Opioid withdrawal
Method of Dosing: Smoked.
Trip Dose and Duration: 5-10mgs.
Medications: None.
Wow, was this a surprise. I had been using OxyContin, Heroin, and other Opiates/Opioids on and off for the past couple weeks, and I had used the last of it on Sunday, the week of this report. On Monday, I started getting some mild to somewhat moderate withdrawals which escalated on Tuesday. I decided to stay home from class and rest, though I did agree to pick up my friend at school. I took a Tranxene (a long-lasting Benzodiazepine) on the way, as I thought this would take away some of the anxiety.
Well, I picked him up, and we headed back to my house. Once we got there, I decided to load up a bowl full of Wild Dagga flowers, as I thought this would also help with my withdrawals. It just so happens that this was the same marble pipe that I had unsuccessfully tried smoking 5-MeO-DMT out of with foil on the screen. That particular day, my friend had tried 5mgs, and I had tried the same. All we got was a small, euphoric rush lasting but seconds. I knew we had wasted it, so we decided to insufflate 8mgs together, and that is where my other 5-MeO-DMT trip report came from entitled 'Undefined, Life Changing'.
However, I started to smoke my Dagga, and I began to feel the subtle effects. Once I got to the end of the pipe, I pushed the resin back towards the pipe hole so I could take one last hit. I did, and then all of a sudden, my body started tingling all over and became numb. My head felt as if I had not inhaled enough Oxygen, and I wondered if I had even breathed in between hits of the Wild Dagga. I stood up to shake it off, and my heart started racing. I felt the feeling of my mind fading, and I mean fast. I thought I was dying. The feeling reminded me of what I always pictured death to be like. I mean, unless death happens immediately, there has to be some feeling in the body and mind. I pictured it to be this fading away lasting but seconds to a minute, and that it would cause a profound feeling of fear. Then, my body would just 'shut down.' This is exactly how I felt. I saw the infamous 'white light' that everyone speaks of when talking about 5-MeO-DMT experiences. My room had just disappeared in front of my eyes, and my body felt as if it was nonexistent. Then, all of a sudden, I remembered; 'Oh my God! That 5-MeO-DMT must have still been in the pipe!'
As soon as I realized what was going on I felt a feeling of relief, and I was able to enjoy the rest of the experience as if I had planned it. As the feeling wore down, or should I say 'as God dropped me from the sky,' I began to feel a very profound feeling of being touched by God. My eyes filled with tears, and I broke down. It was the most beautiful experience I have ever had. ..No visuals, no twisting of perception, just a straight connection to Absolute Beauty (God).
Overall, I believe this wasn't an accident, but I had not planned it nor expected it in any way. The fact that we had ever tried to smoke 5-MeO-DMT from that pipe never crossed my mind. However, I feel as if this was meant to happen. In some way, this showed me something that I embrace that keeps me imprisoned in life. My addiction to Opiates/Opioids. It showed me that it needs to end, and it needs to end now before I end up surrendering my life to it like so many of my friends have. I am very thankful for this experience, and indeed, I will never forget it. The dose could have been anywhere between 1 to 10mgs, though I expect that it was at least 5mgs or more.
Exp Year: 2004 | ExpID: 38218 |
Gender: Male | |
Age at time of experience: Not Given | |
Published: Aug 2, 2005 | Views: 20,465 |
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