DOSE:

1 capsl

oral

MDA

(powder / crystals)

My boyfriend and I, both former ravers (before we met each other), decided we wanted to roll together - we weren't interested in getting back involved with the rave scene, but we had fond memories of rolling and knew that it was inevitable that we'd try it together.

A friend sold us four gel capsules, each about 1/3 filled with a brownish powder, and was very specific in saying that it was MDA and not MDMA. I researched MDA, found plenty of commentary on its hallucinogenic qualities, and was somewhat nervous about these capsules.

Yesterday I unexpectedly got the afternoon off from work, so I went over to the boyfriend's house. He told me he had a confession to make - that he'd taken one of the capsules about an hour before (having no idea I'd be coming over). Suddenly all my fears melted away, and my own curiosity overwhelmed me. I swallowed a capsule with some water. BF said it'd taken him about 15 minutes to start feeling any effects, so we walked to the store together to buy water and gum.

It was a beautiful day, so we ended up walking around the neighborhood, sitting in parks, taking in the scenery. The first real feelings I got were an awareness of each body part and my body as a whole, and a heightened sense of visual acuity combined with understanding and acceptance - I felt like I could see each individual leaf of a tree, for example, and that each one was unique, beautiful, and genuine. A sort of synesthesia, perhaps?

BF and I segued into a discussion of our love for each other, and our equal desires to spend the rest of our lives together (we've been together for a year and a half, very happy and planning to find a shared home later in the year). He was having slight visual hallucinations, I wasn't. After a while I was starting to dance to the 'music' of the nature around me, so we decided to head home lest we attract attention.

By now all fear and apprehension had vanished. We were simply We. At home we took another capsule each, took our clothes off and played around in bed - no sex, just enjoying each other's bodies. This gradually segued into conversation, light-hearted and serious, honest and accepting, asking each other questions and telling each other stories. Throughout the whole time I felt love radiating all around us, and was convinced (and still am) that this meant that our love for each other was true and real. We each have found our life partner, and agreed that rolling with someone you love is vastly different than doing it with friends or ordinary romantic/sexual interests.

The overall feeling we agreed was that of 'herbal ecstasy' meaning that the experience felt gentle and easy compared to past rolls. The comedown was equally gentle. We drank/sipped water throughout the experience, and chewed gum as desired. Both of us had moderate to severe eye flickers, particularly when we tried to look at anything up close, so we played a lot of music (Portishead, Al Green, Herbie Hancock, Flaming Lips) rather than trying to look at things.

The comedown was just as gentle as the roll. We went to visit a friend (I was still feeling conversational and had a great, though not empathic, talk with the friend, while the BF was feeling quiet and dozed a bit) and smoked some pot. Came back to his place and went to bed.

Today, unlike other rolls of the past, I don't feel cracked-out or depressed. I definitely feel lazy, relaxed, calm, and glad that we had that experience. We were even able to go spend the afternoon with his grandpa, he noticed nothing awry, and our tendency towards lounging about was quite compatible with his.

I'm rather surprised at the lack of hallucinogenic effects we got, compared to the other MDA reports on here. Maybe our friend was wrong about the capsules, or maybe it just affected us differently. Either way, I have no regrets. Someone else on here wrote that the time to stop taking ecstasy is when you no longer get anything new from it. We haven't reached that point yet, though I suspect I may be getting near to it. It's the wisest advice I've heard yet.

Exp Year: 2007	ExpID: 62888
Gender: Not Specified
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Feb 20, 2017	Views: 1,919
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