DOSE:

smoked

Cannabis

BODY WEIGHT:

150 lb

[Erowid Note: Some authors report suspicions that their cannabis has been 'laced' (adulterated), in some cases, presumably with PCP. While this is possible, readers should be aware that idiosyncratic response to the effects of cannabis (usually higher doses) can lead some users to presume their cannabis has been 'laced'. There is no way to know if the cannabis in the report below was adulterated or not. Reports of plant material and cannabis laced with powerful synthetic cannabinoids and other psychoactive substances became more common starting in 2007.]
My view of the world has completely changed and this experience has forever scared the living hell out of me.

I've been smoking weed for about 4 years now. My friend had just picked up this killer looking bud. It smelt kind of funny and looked as if there were white crystals/powder on it. My same friend just picked up an illidelph bong so we thought what the heck, why not break it in. Separated between 3 people we smoked 3 bowl packs out of the bong which went around our circle twice each time. My 2 other friends felt tingly high, I felt as if something was wrong. Nothing made sense.

After we were done we put all the shit away, and 30 minutes or so went by and I found myself sitting in my friends bedroom. I thought I was just mind bendingly high till everything went wrong. My friend and this other kid left me sitting on his bed, and as soon as they left it almost felt as if I left reality.

As soon as the door closed I could only look straight. I couldnt move my eyes anywhere. Then I started thinking about shit and couldnt stop. 'what is thinking' 'how does thinking work' 'why are words named words' 'why am I thinking right now' 'people think all the time' 'what the fuck is thinking' 'why am I thinking this?' 'why am I thinking right now' 'can u ever stop thinking' thoughts related to this were racing through my mind. It was almost like a stream of constant mind fucks.

As this started to happen I lost myself in almost a separate reality. I'd start visualizing different words and hearing different peoples voices. And as I tried to identify what I was seeing none of it would make sense. It was almost like I was constantly mindfucking myself and every time it happened the stuff I would think about would make me feel worse than I've ever felt before. This was only the beginning.

Shortly after this happened I guess I passed out on my friends bed sitting up. The nightmare had begun.

I found myself falling down a tunnel seeing images, and feeling what the corresponding image or thought that was in my mind. I heard voices saying 'go kill yourself' or 'your going to die' while all these other pictures and feelings were racing through my mind. These werent slow feelings either, they were all moving very fast. I'd feel like I was throwing up for a second, then I'd change to being high, then drunk, then having sex, then driving, the feeling of jeans, I felt my dog, my friends dogs, a couch, E.T.C. I'd hear my peoples voices I knew they'd be talking or yelling or crying, and I'd try to identify who it was then the voice would change. After this happened I would keep seeing different pictures in my mind of places I've been in my life. And it was almost like I could pause the picture or change it right away. It was almost like each picture or time in my life or some random place would morph into somewhere else.

The last place I saw was a table and a chair, there was carpet on the floor and it looked like the TV was on in the corner. Except for some reason the POV I had was I was under the chair. Then all of a sudden I opened my eyes very slowly. It was like I had to force my eyes open. As this happened I looked around. At my friends. I had no idea what the hell was going on. I wasnt even sure if I was awake, if this was my real life, or if it was all going to morph again shortly because it was just on pause. This is what scared the hell out of me. The thought that is this my life right now or is it going to morph into something absolutely random. After I came to, my friends realized something was wrong. Because theres no way I could fall asleep sitting up when I wasnt tired at all. I had trouble keeping my eyes open and I told my friend that I was scared to close my eyes again because I might go back to my nightmare or die. He then asked me if I felt like I had to puke, as soon as he asked this question, I felt the feeling that I felt earlier when I was 'in another reality' then instantly got up feeling light and dizzy and vomitted for 10 or 15 minutes straight. After this I pretty much slept for the rest of the day and night. This experience made me stop smoking for awhile because I was so scared that if I smoked again I'd go back to where I was on that terrible day.

I have never been so afraid in my life. I'm just glad that I awoke from that hell.

Exp Year: 2008	ExpID: 73429
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Nov 16, 2017	Views: 4,749
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