DOSE:

.25 g

smoked

Salvia divinorum

(extract)

BODY WEIGHT:

135 lb

A friend recently gave me some Salvia that he purchased legally in Alabama. I have tried quite a variety of hallucinogens, some with a much worse reputation than Salvia, and usually handle myself well. I figured that since this one was legal I had nothing to fear. Therefore, I went into the experience with little to no nervousness or anxiety. I had no idea what I was getting myself into. My Salvia trip was hands down the most intense drug experience I have ever had. It is also one of the most terrifying things I have ever been through. I was temporarily trapped in another dimension. I feel that the legality of Salvia is extremely misleading, and that just like any other mind altering substance people should be prepared before they try it. Here is my experience:

and this one takes the cake.

I take a breath. Hold it in. Hold it in longer. Everything starts to feel funny and go blurry. It is hilarious to me. Okay. This is fun, but its getting old.

Wait a second! I am stuck! I'm trapped in another dimension. I cannot get out!

A few more seconds pass and I sink deeper.
I am beginning to even forget that I am sinking.
I am still sinking
Sinking
Sinking

Reality rapidly dissolves. I have now lost my concept of self. I know nothing.
I am an ant. If that.

I am nothing. I am no longer surrounded by people. Everything is a person, and everyone is an object. Everything around me is alive, but I am all alone.

Reality only exists as bars of colors around me: mostly gold, black and red. I am running solely on instinct. I know nothing but I must escape. Some force, which I could only in retrospect identify as panic, drives me to find the exit. But where?

I must find reality. I slap my face, not even knowing that I even have one, the pain confuses me even further. What am I!?

I struggle to stand. I see golden bars. 'Go towards the light,' I think, in some sort of primitive manner resembling human thought.

I hear voices in the back of my mind, 'shes going to knock over the lamp!' What is lamp? I think. I am completely out of control, and for a short time reality flashes back to me. Not reality, but the knowledge of my existence. The knowledge that I am stuck. I know that a lamp is in front of me, Then I realize that I am blind. I cannot see the lamp at all. As I realize my complete lack of control the terror increases. I try to wake myself from this dream.

My breathing becomes heavy and rapid. I need to get out. What are these voices? This laughter? Are these people using me for entertainment. Maybe they hold the answer to the way out.

I am seeing voices as colors. These voices are alive? Maybe they hold the answer to escape. So I stumble towards Brad (who is filming). No luck. I am still stuck.

The music stops. The panic increases.

I am in a big arena and they are all watching me. Why won't they help me out!?

I try again with Lindsey's voice. Still no luck, but at least the bars of color sound concerned now. At least they aren't mocking me anymore.

I am trying harder and harder, I know I will be out soon. One of the voice creatures, David, touches me, this comforts me.

And then another. I pull myself into the world. I am pulling as hard as I can, still running solely on my survival instinct. At this point I can hear myself screaming but it sounds like a different person. I start seeing shapes, and no longer feel like I am 2 inches tall. I feel like I am being reborn. I feel like I am growing. Everything spins a little, making me dizzy. I can feel my body shaking, my heart racing, and see Brad holding me. I still have no idea what had just happened.

Now my identity returns. I still feel sick, and don't completely know who I am, but I know that I am in the real world again. It becomes apparent to me that I am being videotaped, but I am very confused as to why. I am also confused that Tim and Grace are in the room. Then I remember the drug.

I have tried quite a few hallucinogens, but NOTHING was like this. I am thankful for my Salvia experience, because I feel that I have achieved the ultimate disassociation from reality. However, I would have never tried it if I had known the panic and confusion that it causes.

Exp Year: 2008	ExpID: 76093
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Jan 6, 2018	Views: 2,766
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