DOSE:

3 hits

smoked

Salvia divinorum

(extract)

BODY WEIGHT:

190 lb

I've done Hawaiian Shrooms before once in Amsterdam and ate about 3/4 a gram of dried mushrooms. I hallucinated a bunch and had my fun. 2 years later, I decided to hallucinate again, but don't trust drugs on the street, so decided to go ahead with something I can trust, which is legal... salvia. I'm the kind of guy that does about a month's worth of research before buying, traveling, or just plain trying something new. So I did my research on this one to make sure I wasn't doing any damage to my body (I work-out a lot and pay very close attention to my nutrition for good blood). Also checked out a bunch of history behind the herb, watched videos with people doing it, read a bunch of times how to do it right. There... I’m ready for this, I’m sure I’ll just hallucinate a bunch and come back in 3 minutes.

I finally buy the 20x from a head shop in Ottawa right after I’m done my University exams for the year, I try something new every summer. I told my girlfriend what I bought and she looked disappointed in me as if I’m going to be doing heroin next time I try a new drug. But then smiled again since she remembered that she told me I’m free to do whatever I want in my life and she’ll support me. I explained to her the meaning behind these travels from the Shamans and that I would never do anything man made. It took me 4 days after I bought it to actually try it, and those were the longest 4 days ever, like Christmas was coming closer.

Finally, one weekend, with all of my family still at home, I explained to her that I’ve been wanting to do this for so long (4 days is “so long” for me) and it was tough not wanting to do it without a sitter alone in my room and that I really wanted to do this. Ok, so we decide to go do a “pic-nic” in a small little park where kids were playing (was 5:00 and had work at 6:00). There’s a little forest beside the park and some apartment buildings, and I didn’t want to do this in my room since I believe this herb wasn’t used in our present technology and the best way to experience this would be outside, fresh air, beside some forest, like Shamans did.

I had a home-made bong with me made out of a plastic bottle, a pen tube, liquor flask funnel and a small little disk filter from a faucet I unscrewed from a display. My girlfriend used my DV recorder to get the entertaining parts, although I was in the park with these kids about 300 meters away, I thought it was still illegal what I was about to do, with all the people looking around, like alcohol is illegal outside, or didn’t know if it’s legal or illegal to smoke anything in a child’s park. So I still tried to wait till people passed by before I’d take a puff.

First puff went down good, held for a good 20 seconds, and then blew out, smoke came out, so I must be doing this right... but nothing, just a little twitch on my right arm as if I was getting these spasms I get from weed. Ok, add some more salvia, puff again, weird taste, held in 20 seconds... everything on the left side of my ear all the way down where the eye could see felt like was a huge glass wall, and vibrated 3 times as if somebody knocked on a door or something... ok, still considered nothing... what the hell? Was I ripped off? Ok even more now! If I do it right again, I’m sure to have something more than a slight vibration from an atmospheric door knock. Take it really deep this time! Hold it in... 30 seconds... blow out.

Nothing... wait... “wow...” is what I thought. Still after 3 days of this happening I am unable to explain what happened, there are 3 parts of the story, 3 experiences intertwined into one trip. The bad-trip I had was the bad-trip of all 3 stories in the same time, the happy-trips was the combination of all the trips also. Think about 3 stories, piled one on top of the other, with the same hump and bumps matching perfectly on top of each other.

First story (the visual effects):
I was lying on my side with my arm at a 90 degree angle holding myself up... looking down at the blanket, I imagined my girlfriend’s head was between my arm and head as if my arm was stretched over as we were sitting in a car, and her iPod was playing on the blanket, but the words of the music felt like I was saying these romantic things to her from the song, while it was playing on the car radio. “Are you alright?”... I looked up to her, and realized I wasn’t actually in a car, what? This is when I saw the grass... the trees... the sky... everything had 8-bit colours (The first Mario Bros. game from Nintendo), I’m colour-blind, so I don’t know if that affects this or not. The grass were just plain cylinders of the same shape and size, millions. The trees looked so simple in shapes, but my girlfriend sitting Indian-style infront of me, seemed completely normal. I didn’t remember her as my girlfriend, I didn’t even know who I was... all I knew, was that I represented earth and human-kind, and I was on this planet with what she seemed to be, the queen of this world... what’s happening?

This is where I started bad tripping, I realized people in the park shouldn’t be seeing me doing drugs... and my mind started freaking out. The world just seemed so dark and chaotic representing I did something bad... but what was bad? What did I do? “Did.... did I smoke drugs?” I asked... “ok... wait... I walked from home... took a picnic... I didn’t do anything bad... why is everything like this? Did I smoke drugs? Why? Why are we here for smoking drugs?” the queen never answered, she just sat still, looking at me and that frustrated me, and alien that doesn’t speak my language can’t explain to me how I got here. “You smoked some salvia, you’ll be ok...” these were the words that made me the happiest guy ever; this phrase brought me right back to earth with the buzz pretty much gone. I stood up so happy I was running in circles, my girlfriend still thought I was high and told me to sit down... but no, I was so happy I was back.

Second story (what my mind felt like):
Imagine a puzzle you received for your birthday, and it has 1000 pieces. I started to make the puzzle, which was pretty pleasant, and entertaining. I was having fun making it... but to date, I only see black coloured pieces. Whatever though, I’m still making it, still having fun... this is what my mind felt like before the bad-trip... but once the bad-trip came along, I finished the puzzle... but the middle piece was missing, I had 999 pieces of the puzzle. Oh no!!! I can never finish it!!! Imagine the frustration of looking around for what seemed forever for the last middle piece... of this black canvas puzzle.

This confusion lasted so long, at first it really felt like something was missing when I was tripping. This was the most important piece too, since it was the only piece of the puzzle that had a picture on it, giving the meaning of actually making it... when my girlfriend told me “You smoked some salvia, you’ll be ok...”, this was the sentence that could pretty much be translated into “oh, I found the piece, here you go”. This made me the happiest man ever, I finished the mind puzzle. The last piece of the puzzle explained to me that all this chaos I was having, was for the last piece... which had a picture of salvia on it, giving me back my sanity since I had my answer.

Third story (spiritual side of the story):
This I think is the best way to describe what I felt in general. Everything has an opposite, Ying, Yang; Hot, Cold; Male, Female. But what I never realized... is that our reality, our consciousness, also has its own opposite. Picture our reality, our sense of self-being, the whole world, as a house that we live in. We have beautiful wall paper, people are happy (or pretend) and everything that is matter lives in that house. Philosophers for generations were the only ones who seemed to care and look out the window and tried to describe what was sub-natural, what they see, but without completely understanding the outside. Now, picture salvia as the door, smoking it as opening the door, and the starting buzz as being outside with the door shut behind you. This is exactly what I felt, I saw “outside” sure trees were different, grass was different, and the outside just seemed 8-bit colour, it was fun to adventure for a bit.

This is when I realized that Shamans used salvia to have god’s vision; so really, I stepped into god-country. I felt amazing, and so turned around... this is where the bad-trip started, I saw the outside of the house. I saw our reality, our humanity, our sanity, from an outside point-of-view. I saw the bricks, foundation, and the roof of our house. The bad-trip caught on because our house was not pretty at all. We seemed to believe everything from the inside is nice and dandy with all the coolest furniture, parents (government) looking over us as kids... even though we think everything is nice in the inside, I saw the outside of the house, and it scared me a lot, it was truly disgusting and wanted to walk back in, but the door was locked! I panicked and didn’t know how to get back to the real world, I was in the land of the gods, which built our house... and by its discuss, seemed as if they gave-up on renovating it since we stopped appreciating what they’re doing to us as a society.

I felt as if truth was given out to me right in front of my eyes, proof that there some sort of divinity out there. Either we start appreciating them for what they do to help us build renovate our house before the ceiling falls on all of us destroying us, or we smarten up and start renovating ourselves. I would see the outside of our environment as “like this? Did I smoke drugs? Why? Why are we here for smoking drugs?” and really thought “why, as a society do we have to hide to do drugs?” this is what I meant by this confused sentence, Why? Why are we here for smoking drugs? It’s exactly what I meant. We’re a society that we have to hide every time we do something different and can’t truly express ourselves properly because of scare. Homosexuals, drug dealers, “strange” sexual activities, illegal poker games everything we do and have to hide to do it, why do we all have to hide this? Why are there even rules out there? It just seemed as if order was killing us. When my girlfriend said “You smoked some salvia, you’ll be ok...” this pretty much got translated into “The door's opened again, run back in!" Once I ran inside back to reality, I was so happy to be back to our happy, innocent point of view of our society that has a possible future... without the thought of the ceiling going to crash on us. I stood up, and ran being so happy to be back here, of course this is when my girlfriend still thought I was tripping... but it was pure happiness.

All of these 3 stories played in the same time visually, mentally, and spiritually. Three different stories, playing in the same time... and all of this lasted about 2-3 minutes. In my mind, it lasted for a couple of hours though. I didn’t know how to explain this to my girlfriend when she told me “What did you see?” I had a headache, and told her she had no idea what I experienced. At first I didn’t know there were 3 stories to it, I just thought somehow it made sense in one story... but unexplainable. Funny, because I told her people on YouTube are so stupid for not explaining what they experienced, and that I would be able to explain to her exactly (again, I thought it was going to be like shrooms) what has happened... “hahaha, I think now you know why those people on the internet say they can’t explain it either”... she’s right, there are no words for what I experienced, it took me a couple of days just to come to these 3 stories... but it was more than that I’m sure, because I felt it. Every drug out there will screw around with one or more of the human senses, sight, hearing, taste, smell, and touch... salvia seemed to prove there is a sixth sense, being the human soul... and salvia will screw around with that sense instead.

Exp Year: 2008	ExpID: 78205
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Oct 11, 2022	Views: 855
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