DOSE:			Mimosa tenuiflora	(tea)
			Syrian Rue	(tea)

BODY WEIGHT:

140 lb

My friend created the ayahuasca analog by boiling syrian rue and Mimosa hostilis, then straining the fibers. I don't know the dosage but I know it was twice as much as recommended by the recipe...

It took me 45 minutes to sip it down...it took my friend about 10 minutes. 1 and 1/2 hours later my friend started to trip out. I definitely felt it, but it was mild. He told me it was more intense than any entheogen he'd ever taken...he told me to throw it up...he was relentless so we both did. I only threw up 1/3 of it because I still wanted to experience it.

20 minutes later I started to feel it a lot. It felt a lot like mushrooms...but less focused on the body and more on the mind. It was getting intense, and a little scary. We decided to listen to music. That was a good decision.

We went to a different room. After that physical time lost meaning. It got VERY intense. I decided to throw up more, but it wasn't possible. The tea had been digested and it wasn't coming back up! Everything became synchronistic. Me and my friend stopped talking to each other, but we were connecting more than ever. We would both spontaneously laugh at the same time, and both get scared simultaneously.

This trip went to hell, then it went to heaven. Then back and forth and around and WTF! It was one of the hardest things I've had to go through. Instant manifestation. I felt whatever I created...and it wasn't easy. It was just constant insanity, either pure pain or pure pleasure, either pure fear or pure joy, and true love and true expression. I was purging my emotions, and with release I experience heaven...

We decided to go to sleep because my friend had work at 7:00 and it was 11:45. I finally thought the trip was ending...I was wrong. I tried to go to sleep and it got more intense and more ridiculous. I discovered that life is whatever consciousness turns it into. This is my experience and I control everything I feel. This is pretty profound. Matter is a myth, and we are pioneers of experience. Our natural state is non-material...Trees are very conscious and we are parasites of the earth...

My friend came to my room because he couldn't sleep either. At this point I started to realize that it was just getting more and more intense. He started to talk to me about healing and how amazing it was, but I was still in the process of purging emotions, so I was suffering. Then we started to trip out so heavily we couldn't even talk...Are conversations sounded somewhat like this...

Me: What???? (referring to the trip)
Him: Wow...
Me: What the F#$%.
Him: Aghh
Me:Ohh
Him:this
Me:huh?
Me:Wow

What I experienced I cannot explain...I wish it was possible but it really isn't...but I will try and I will fail...

Basically, it felt like I was experiencing another demention...Like the 4th demention. Nothing made any sense. Matter became unstable..trails trails trails...colors...waves...I remember being here...What?...what the f*%$?...How am I supposed to deal with this...

Many times during the trip when I was alone I kept repeating to myself 'NEVER DO THIS, NEVER DO THIS AGAIN!' I was serious...I was going to write it down. And the weirdest part is that it never seemed to end...I was convinced that if a person took enough ayahuasca that time would spread out so far that they would stay in the trip for nearly eternity.

Ayahuasca is incredibly intense...Unless you are prepared to face your greatest fears, then abstain from it...However, the healing that can be experience is profound...I realized near the end of the trip that after going through that, I can do anything! It was hard, I can't even express it. But it was worth it. I am glad I did it, and I'm so glad it's over.

One other thing that it changed my perspective on is the concept of God. I realized that it is just a word. And that what's real is us. You are real. I am real. Plants are real. Birds are real. Love is real. And God is just a word to describe the other side of our nature and communion. I realized that I am the son of God, and you are as well. It's all about you...and me...and them. There is no end...Death is not real...We create the world because life is just a game. You can have everything you want, and eventually you will.

I love you, follow your heart, married with wisdom...and be prepared to fall into the void of your own infinity!

Exp Year: 2009	ExpID: 79151
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Jul 1, 2016	Views: 2,295
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