DOSE: T+ 0:00	0.5 mg	sublingual	Clonazolam	(pill / tablet)
T+ 0:25	3 hits	smoked	Salvia divinorum	(extract)

BODY WEIGHT:

130 lb

I'll start off with a little bit of information. First, I have been awake for about 24 hrs and it is about 8:00 am, so my grammar may be terrible at the moment. Second, I have never tried any psychoactive drug before. So this was going to be a completely new experience for me. I like to consider myself a logical and open-minded person. I also strive to expand my mind as much as possible. So this might help explain the reasoning behind my trip.

I have heard about Salvia for several years now, but I never got around to trying it, mainly due to skepticism. Finally, at the beginning of August, I had a chance to try it. A couple of people I know who are familiar with it decided to get some for me as a going away gift before I went back to school for the year.

It was about 9:20 am as we drove to my friends house. I have a tendency to get anxious, so I decided it would be best to let a 0.5 mg Clonazepam melt under my tongue, just to take the edge off a bit.

It was about 9:45 when we had packed up the first bowl of 80x, Purple Sticky Salvia. Both of my friends were trying to pressure me into taking the first hit; but being as I am, I like to see the effects on others before I try something. My first friend took a drag and passed it to me. Needless to say I ended up hitting it before I even saw the effects on her. My third friend then took a hit as I held in the smoke. After that I took the 4th drag, which cashed the bowl.

Within a few seconds, I felt a little wavy and spacey from those two hits (I think it was because I didn't hold the smoke in long enough, and didn't have the first hit). After that, my friend who had taken the hit after me packed up the rest of the Salvia and handed me the bowl. I took the biggest hit I could and held it in for as long as I could. I passed to bowl to her to let her finish it off and waited.

I let out the smoke after probably about 30-45 sec. of holding it in and waited. It didn't take long for it to kick in, and when it did, it came like a huge wave. At first I felt like I was pulled back into the chair I was in and I couldn't quit laughing. I remember trying to talk, but it being hard to. My voice sounded like I was talking very choppy. Due to this I became quiet. Immediately this, the visual hallucinations began. The only way I could describe the first one was by this:

Imagine graph paper behind you. All the squares were protruding all around me to about arms length in front of me. They were also orange and yellow. The ones that were behind me were attached to my body. I felt that if I could get to the edge of where the squares stopped, I could get back to reality. I remember thinking the whole time that this couldn't be real. So I struggled for a while to get to the edge, but I would be pulled back into the chair. Eventually I decided to quit struggling and to calm myself down. I think this happened because as the high set in, I was trying to think logically and clear headed.

After calming myself down I recall the squares going away and being able to see the room again. However, in front of me was what looked to be an opening. The only way I could describe it was being a one dimensional object that was just large enough for me to fit into. The edges of it were foggy, almost like a portal had been opened up in our known world. Within this portal was a corner of an old room. This library was nothing but bookshelves. They stretched from the floor up. I couldn't see how high they went due to the edge of the portal blocking my view. Every bookshelf was crammed full of old leather-bound books. There were countless ones I could see. Now, even though I couldn't see what these books were about, I understood what this room was. I knew it held all the knowledge of humanity within it. It had writings from the earliest humans, to the great philosophers like Plato and Socrates, on up to knowledge we currently do not know yet.

So immediately upon realizing what a beautiful place this is, I attempted to go through the portal. I recall being extremely excited and anxious to get my hands on the books. Meanwhile, my two friends were talking up a storm. As they spoke, I could see their voices, which looked like gray smoke coming out. As I advanced forward, their voices would pull me back into the chair. I tried to fight it as much as possible, but was unable to overpower their voices. I remember getting very, VERY irritated by this. I wanted to tell them to shut up, but I wasn't able to speak. Eventually, the portal faded away, along with their voices.

After that happened and me relaxing again, everything in the universe suddenly made sense. This part is hard for me to put into words, because it was more of a feeling. I just had a good feeling in me, almost like an x high kind of good feeling. Everything I looked at gave off a good vibe and was beautiful. At the time I couldn't even put the situation going on into words. I just knew that everything was making sense to me.

Eventually, that feeling faded away due to me staring at the Grandfather clock against the wall. As I stared at it I noticed the hands being in different positions. One moment, it was at the current time; another, at 8 am and another around 11 pm (yes, PM). I felt like I was time traveling.

Once I was done feeling like I was time traveling, I looked to my right to see what my two friends were doing. Apparently their highs had faded away and they were playing with the dogs. I remember sitting there looking at one of the two dogs, as he gazed back at me. However, it was a very sad look. I could tell this dog was sad. I was able to completely understand him. Closest thing I can relate it to is ESP, except we weren't talking to one another in anyway, physically or mentally. As I stared at this dog, I felt extreme sadness and sympathy come over me. I felt so bad for him, and I knew he was upset due to how they were treating him. They were trying to play with him, but he obviously didn't like it.

About this time my trip started going away. I was still hallucinating a bit. The room kept looking like it was being pulled away from me... or I was being pulled away from the rest of it. I sat there observing this, while in extremely deep thought. At times I would close my eyes, and my imagination was extremely vivid. I felt like I was watching a movie on the inside of my eyelids, and it was of whatever I wanted it to be. I continued to think for a while, running what I just experienced through my head. The whole time I hardly said a word. I believe it was about 10:20, if not a bit later, at this time. I actually had to look at my phone because come to find out, the grandfather clock that I thought was working was actually broken.

We left within the next fifteen minutes to head to lunch. By this time, all the hallucinations had ended. I just felt high, unbalanced, and confused. This faded off for the next hour or so. Around 1:00 - 1:30, these feelings had completely faded away. The rest of the day I felt extremely calm and relaxed; too the point where I ended up taking a 4-5 hr. nap around 4:00 pm.

After reflecting about my trip, after my trip, I realized what the meaning of the room of knowledge was. I strive to expand my mind and learn as much as possible. However I have constantly had people interfering with this in many different ways; whether it's due to being a distraction (i.e. ex-girlfriend), to just not caring when I try talking to them about different subjects. It made me realize that I had to set my priorities straight, and to continue my quest for more knowledge without allowing people to prevent me from doing so. I wouldn't say I'm dependent on people, but I realized how influential they have been on me lately.

After reading a good amount of horror stories about first times for people, I think I am really lucky I had what I would call an intellectual trip off of 80x. I would like to try thinking about a certain matter over and over again while smoking the Salvia, up until the point of tripping. I'm curious if it is possible to set the stage for one's trip.

Exp Year: 2009	ExpID: 81020
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 21
Published: Oct 22, 2022	Views: 2,730
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