The Void: My First Time
5-MeO-DMT
Citation: DiMiTri . "The Void: My First Time: An Experience with 5-MeO-DMT (exp81507)". Erowid.org. Oct 7, 2019. erowid.org/exp/81507
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25 mg | smoked | 5-MeO-DMT | (powder / crystals) |
smoked | Cannabis | (plant material) |
BODY WEIGHT: | 190 lb |
The setting was perfect, the night sky was beautiful. This was partially because we were in a rural area and there were no city lights to detract from the moonlight and starlight. Also, there were very few clouds, and it was about 60 degrees or so outside, cool but not cold. We built a rather large fire in a huge fire pit in the middle of my friend's ten or so acres of forrest-laden land. I had terrible butterflies in my stomach because I have had terrifying experiences with hallucinogens in the past.
My drugs of choice are not hallucinogens, I prefer oxycontin, vicodin, percocet, and basically anything else that will give me a sense of warmth and tranquility. I have tripped magic mushrooms many times (more than four, less than ten) and the most I took of those was an eighth and a half and that was too much for me, I saw my aura in the mirror and got really scared because I got a 'hall of mirrors' effect when I started thinking too much. I have tripped acid once but I only took one tab and did not trip very hard, but I did like it somewhat, except for some paranoia I got from it.
Here is a full list of the drugs I've tried: Valium, Xanax, Benzos, MDMA, cannabis, opium, Oxycontin, Percocet, Vicodin, Lithium, magic mushrooms, various anti-depressants, Adderall, Ritalin, cocaine, LSD, Darvocet, Darvon, and morphine. That's all I can remember, I don't think there are any others, at least that I can think of. Wait, alcohol....of course LOL.
Anyway, back to the 5 MeO DMT experience now that you have a bit of background on me and what I've done/where I've been.
My friend took me into the garage and packed a bowl of some pretty decent weed (I say pretty decent when most people would look at this weed and flip out about how good it was, but we're spoiled around here :-)) He asked me what kind of trip I wanted because he had three different substances on him at the time, and these were: 5 MeO DMT, N,N DMT, and some other drug whose name I cannot remember, he said it was fairly new and fairly undocumented) I asked him what the effects were like and he said that the 5 MeO DMT was like a slap in the face, a total mind fuck, so I decided I wanted to try that one because that was what I was looking for at the time. He prepared these red crystals in the bowl and said it was a fairly hefty dose, 25 milligrams, more than enough to 'break through'. He explained to me what breaking through was, basically it's just getting the most I possibly can out of the drug, or at least the most intense experience.
We walked back outside and sat by the fire where some good friends who I trust very much were waiting for us. I sat with the pipe and lighter in my hands for about five minutes, just trying to clear my mind and prepare for the experience. I was the first one to go simply because I knew it had to be someone and everyone else was being squeamish about it. I finally put the lighter to the bowl and tried to smoke as much as I possibly could before I started tripping, because my friend told me that I would trip almost immediately and I would not be able to smoke anymore soon after the first hit. BOY WAS HE RIGHT!!! My friends had asked me to try to explain everything and talk about the trip while I was tripping as much as possible, for one thing to help them realize what it was like and secondly so I would remember the experience better. I tried to speak but the only words that came out for the first minute were, 'oh.....my......god' Everything around me felt like it became a part of me. I felt like I was floating inside of a 'void' in the universe and everything around me was attached to me, physically, mentally, and spiritually. The whole world, that is what I could see visually, started to warp and bounce in front of me as if I was watching a projector screen and someone was punching it from behind, making it warp convexly and concavely. Then everything around me started to get a rainbow effect to it for a while, until it all turned a brilliant green color. I started to stare at the fire and I noticed that the flames seemed to wrap around the pit itself, as if they were traveling underground and I had the ability to see them travel all the way back around to touch themselves. I looked over at my friend and when he turned his head toward me I saw the motion of his head in what seemed like a hundred individual frames, as if I was seeing his head move in a strobe-light pattern that is. He smiled at me and this made me feel very good and very safe. My friends told me after I came down that I said something like, 'I feel like I'm a part of everything, like I'm part of the ground, the FIRE, the STARS!!! EVERYTHING!!!! This feels so GOOD!!!' It really did feel good, like a combination of a REALLY hard acid trip and pure MDMA, because the body feel was quite similar to pure MDMA, but more intense and more immersive.
It took me about an hour to come down all the way, I didn't get any visuals after about the first ten minutes of the trip, but I had a funny body feeling/high for about an hour after I smoked it.
In retrospect I think it was a great decision to try the drug. It didn't alter my perspective or world view in any radical way, and I didn't really have any spiritual insights during or after the trip. This drug seems more recreational than spiritual, but I still enjoyed it VERY much and I plan on doing it again very soon.
Peace from DiMiTri :-)
Exp Year: 2009 | ExpID: 81507 |
Gender: Male | |
Age at time of experience: 22 | |
Published: Oct 7, 2019 | Views: 1,073 |
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