DOSE:

2 tablets

oral

Amphetamines

BODY WEIGHT:

145 lb

I’ve used various substances on a regular basis throughout the past 2-3 years, but my old stand-bys are pills (of virtually any kind) and weed. I messed around with coke (snorting and smoking crack) for a while last summer, but that was the only real upper I’d ever gotten to my hands on. I found the effects of coke to be fast-acting and enjoyable, but also messy and often unpleasant to administer. (This may have simply been due to the quality of coke I was able to buy in a fairly small town, however.)

I go to a Big 12 university now, and there are many more options available. Finals week started yesterday and students all over campus need extra boosts to get through the end of the semester. I’m involved in our school’s Theatre department, which is a Pandora’s box of drugs and alcohol, and heard that one of my guy friends was selling Adderall to stressed out peers. I had been flailing around trying to get through a million final projects and papers, and was elated at the news. I bought the last two pills my friend had at a wisp of a cost, and was so excited to experience the effects that I popped them in my mouth without even glancing at the dosage—something I would ALWAYS make a point to do, otherwise. (I’m 5’8” and about 145 lbs with an athletic build, and the pills were mostly likely either 20 or 30 mgs a piece.) Luckily, I had eaten a big dinner, so getting sick (which is apparently a legitimate concern with this drug) wasn't much of a concern. I asked my friend how long it would take to feel it. He told me it took him 15 minutes, max, to feel the first of the effects. I started tingling in about 5. It started faintly, and I was almost unaware of the change. Suddenly, however, I realized I was focusing, hard, on one thing at a time, catching every detail. I started feeling twitchy and restless, finding I simply had to get out of my chair and shift from foot to foot. I asked my boyfriend, politely but impatiently, if he was ready to leave.

I went to the performing arts center’s computer lab from there, ready to do anything but sit still behind the wheel of my car. I plopped down in a chair, ready to write a 5-page research paper, and discovered one of our strangest department members in the room with me. Now, I like this kid, I think he’s nice and funny, but he’s also painfully socially inept and blatantly, purposefully intrusive and distracting. I will usually just greet him and talk to him for a minute or two in passing, but tonight I felt like I could have listened to his life’s story and commented on every anecdote. Every facet of his current events fascinated me—I couldn’t get enough information. When a story ended, I found myself needing another detail or replying with a full story of my own. Soon, a few hours had passed, and I had barely written a sentence of my paper. I would start to write, and another topic would occur to me to talk to this guy about. He was, in the course of one night, my new best friend, and every thought from me or him was a wonderful revelation.

By the time the guy was actually pushing ME to write my paper, I realized that Adderall was affecting me differently than it did most people. I found I had the typical effects: energy to run a marathon, the false perception that my heart was beating quickly, a completely absent appetite (on a girl who loves to eat), slightly blurred but somehow sharp vision, heavier-than-usual perspiration, super-quick speaking voice, and yes, increased focus. The problem was, I was focusing on the wrong things. I could focus very specifically, but found EVERYTHING to be a potential focal point/distraction. Everything, and I mean every little thing in the world was absolutely enthralling. Multi-tasking was next to impossible. I'm also super anemic (and have tons of blood parasites and shit, etc.) so I occasionally became very lightheaded and felt I could pass out at any moment.

After about 3 hours, I seemed to lose a bit of the bouncy, overly hyper stage of the high. I finally managed to write the paper, but in no less time than it probably would’ve taken sober, due to the initial delay. I did lose all feelings of fatigue for about 8 hours, though, which was glorious.

I’m coming down somewhat now, I think. I got home a bit ago and feel like I may be able to sleep. It's almost 7 am. Overall, this has been a wonderful experience. I didn’t get as much done as quickly as I’d thought I would, but the first, overly interested phase was actually pretty euphoric. I’d love to have that feeling back, and can see myself using Adderall again. Hopefully soon.

Exp Year: 2010	ExpID: 85229
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: 19
Published: May 1, 2020	Views: 836
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