Over the Edge
DMT & Citalopram
Citation: walters ride. "Over the Edge: An Experience with DMT & Citalopram (exp88607)". Erowid.org. Jan 7, 2017. erowid.org/exp/88607
DOSE: |
80 mg | oral | Pharms - Citalopram | (daily) |
vaporized | DMT | (extract) |
BODY WEIGHT: | 220 lb |
I was alone when I did this which is something I strongly do not recommend. I am a mid 40’s ex-adrenaline junky with more than enough scars to validate my foolhardiness. In any case I was extremely excited about trying this.
The first hit vaporized pretty efficiently and I got a long consistently tolerable flow of white smoke for the whole inhale. The taste wasn’t bad leading me to believe that I had under-filled the bowl. I sat back, held for about twenty and exhaled.
Immediately I could sense a marked change in my perception of colors and the texture of objects. I wanted to take another hit right away but I was hesitant. My hand looked like it was glowing with an iridescent white outer layer. I waited about thirty seconds and reloaded about the same sized dose. I tried to smoke it quickly anticipating the threshold and perhaps dropping the bowl. I burned it too fast and the hit was shorter duration but much harsher.
Right at this moment I can tell I am going to love this but I still am not over the edge. I was sitting in my computer chair looking at two monitors. The color and the contrast in everything was intense. The only way to describe it was that the objects seemed to be radiating energy and the DMT was allowing me to see it in a different spectrum.
I was still not over the edge and filled the bowl again. This time I was determined and I loosely packed the whole bowl with fluffy shavings. Number three gave me full lungs. I put the pipe down and set my head back. As soon as I exhaled I was in… in all the way. A tunnel opened up in front of me that was made of millions of rotating cobalt blue spheres. I spent a few moments in the tunnel watching the vanishing point shift unpredictably from side to side. The color and the experience was beyond anything that I had ever imagined. Instantly the tunnel disappeared and I found myself seated in a geometric world. The place was not a manifestation of where I was sitting but someplace completely different. Everything was framed in red, black and brilliantly lit silver. The entire scene was incredibly detailed and the lines defining this place where clear and geometrically perfect. I felt like my world had become digitized and that I was in control of it. The red outlines were the brightest most beautiful color I have ever seen. I don’t know at this point if my eyes were open or closed.
The whole experience lasted about ten minutes but at this point time was irrelevant. At some point I became conscious of my surroundings, but then drifted back into my digital world. This happened about three times and then I got scared. I had the feeling I was trapped in the digital world and wasn’t coming out. On about the third episode of awareness I stood up and touched the ceiling making a conscious effort to bring myself back to reality. I could not and started to drift out again. I called out loudly to my dog Walter who dutifully came and sat in front of me. I felt myself drifting out again and I grabbed a hold of Walter and laid down on the floor. Walter is big and very conscious and at that moment I felt like he knew there was something going on. I hugged Walter and tried to calm him down. I remember saying to him “Go to sleep with me .. it’s OK”. I closed my eyes and his presence was very comforting. I pressed my head against his chest and tried to get back in control. At that moment I felt incredible love for the dog. I was having extreme closed eye visuals. I was seeing what I can only describe as a fusion of my soul with Walter. The visuals included animated biological processes that seemed to be in harmony with his heartbeat. The visuals became more developed and intricate as they progressed.. all clearly associated with my connection to the dog.
I came out of the trip hanging on to Walter. I snapped out as fast as I snapped in and when I came out I felt like I had just survived a journey to another dimension. Incredible.. totally exceeded my expectation in every way. I laughed for about an hour afterwords thinking about it.
If anybody cares I have taken an above prescribed dose of Citalopram (80 mg Selective Serotonin Re-uptake Inhibitor) and have for about a year and a half.
Maybe no more….
Exp Year: 2010 | ExpID: 88607 |
Gender: Male | |
Age at time of experience: 48 | |
Published: Jan 7, 2017 | Views: 4,903 |
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