DOSE:

15 seeds

oral

H.B. Woodrose

(extract)

BODY WEIGHT:

180 lb

A water extract is extremely simple without any chemicals needed. Other extracts are fine, but there is no reason to not perform at least a simple h2o extract. I never ingest the actual seeds, eating the 'mush' will not amplify the trip.

Quick preparation description: 15 or 16 Hawaiian strain HBWR (mailed from Hawaii even!) were ground in a coffee grinder after being soaked in water 3-4 hours. The water soak was to help remove the outer fuzzy/funky layer. I know that it is yet inconclusive if the bad junk is on this outer fuzzy layer, but I'd rather not take chances.

The seed silt was not extremely finely ground, but it was fairly well powderized. I placed this powder in filtered water (was concerned there would still be chlorine present, but this didn't seem to be problematic), with about 10% per volume lemon juice.
I shook the solution every 5-6 hours, and this was left to sit for 24 hours. It smelled odd, and I was concerned it may have spoiled, but I'm pretty sure that was not the case.

After one day, solution was filtered through a large sieve, then filtered twice with coffee filters to make sure NO seed remnants were in the solution. It was late by then, about 2am. Little did I know what a long night/morning this was about to be. Solution was imbibed with humble prayer and a mix of iced tea. However, I still do not think this was ritualized enough. One really needs to be in a 'separate space' and purified to properly imbibe the sacraments, IMO.

Within minutes, I felt agony beyond agony in my stomach. It truly felt like my insides were being ripped apart. I need to add some background here, which relates to the Health Benefits of Hbwr. For the past months, I've had stomach problems. It may be candida or some kind of stomach fungus, I'm not exactly sure. I'm probably lactose intolerant now. It's got to the point where I vomit once or twice a week just from eating food that my stomach cannot handle - and not excessive amounts either. This has greatly concerned me as my stomach never felt 'right,' but always felt at least a little off, even when eating healthy and taking probiotics etc. I do take DXM once or twice a month and have for quite a while, and I think this contributed to messing up my stomach.

Back to the stomach agony. I was outside in the snow trying to purge. No matter how much I tried nothing came out. I suddenly felt this intuition / voice: 'You're not in control.' Nope - now the seed was! The lack of control scares some, but we all need to relinquish control at times. So I just surrendered to the HBWR's spirit and flow.

About 10 minutes later, after pacing franticly in pain, it was time to purge. And I am talking Ayahuasca La Purga level purging here. MY GOOD GODS. This was perhaps one of the most profound cathartic releases of my life. When the vomit came out - and it was barely anything, just a tiny amount of water from the extract - the vomit came from the BOTTOM OF MY TOES to the very top of my head. Every cell of my body heaved with this purge. And the sound was terrifying. it was a groan of such depth and mind-shattering agony that was not from myself! I was 'possessed' and this sound was no longer my own voice, but some kind of primeval sound from millions of years ago. The groan went on for 30-40 seconds, and it reverberated with my stomach with a shattering pain. This was not just physical release. It was psychic, emotional, spiritual and physical - all in one, as there is no separation among these. The purging continued, to the point in which I was crying in ecstatic surrender. Unbelievably powerful. Not only that, I could actually feel the seeds/purging 'scan' my stomach deep down into my intestines - it was looking for something!! The purging continued and I could feel the entire universe in the vomiting - the karma of the universe was flowing through and flowed right out with each purge. BLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

After the release, I felt so light that I could have floated away. This seems common to ayahuasca journeys, but I haven't read about it much in seed reports.

The unexpected part was not only did my stomach feel better - it felt AMAZING! I mean, it hasn't felt that way in months or longer. Whatever fungus or pH imbalance etc plagued my stomach was no longer there! I couldn't believe it. Maybe there are anti-parasite/anti-virus/etc. properties in the seeds. I'm not sure. All I know is that the intelligence within this seed KNEW I had to release something deep within my stomach, maybe even intestines, and it went right for it, though I thought I'd die in pain during the process.

And I'm very glad for that! Throughout that day, my stomach would bubble and make weird noises. One time while drinking water (extremely dehydrated after the death-purge), I felt more bubbles and actually sensed my stomach lining regenerate! This is true medicine. For the rest of the day, this feeling of calm and balance in my stomach continued, which improved my mood in general.

Days later, my stomach still feels fantastic. I take it easy with my diet, but my digestion actually works now and is efficient, instead of feeling sick after almost every meal I eat. I won't get into the other entheogenic details of the journey... it was not a totally mind-shattering dose for me in terms of that, but was still very edifying and humbling. I want to stress, instead, the physical/psychic/emotional and spiritual benefits contained within this mysterious seed. Though it can poison some, in this case, it removed my poison.

Exp Year: 2010	ExpID: 88614
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 28
Published: May 13, 2020	Views: 1,326
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