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I Was Not Prepared for Eternity
Amanita muscaria
Citation:   oxyparadox. "I Was Not Prepared for Eternity: An Experience with Amanita muscaria (exp91061)". Erowid.org. Aug 7, 2018. erowid.org/exp/91061

 
DOSE:
2 oral Amanitas - A. muscaria (dried)
  1 oral Amanitas - A. muscaria (dried)
  1 oral Amanitas - A. muscaria (dried)
BODY WEIGHT: 210 lb
I became interested in the Amanita Muscaria but remained skeptical of its effects. Considering that it wasnt illegal I figure it cant be that intense.

THE SETUP
I received an ounce of the mushroom from an online vendor and proceeded to eat two of them...Nothing happened, I ate another, nothing. I ate one more and gave up. I laid on my couch.

THE LAUNCH
I awoke with a jolt, I felt a little nausea and I felt as if I needed to go to bed. I went to my bedroom and laid down. I noticed that I was sweating.

ALL HELL BREAKS LOOSE
I found myself alone in a dark chamber. I was distinctly aware that I had no body. Then in front of me a horizon came into appearance and out of that horizon formed one cell. This cell had a dialog with itself which I strangely could hear. This is how it went
'I am here, so therefore there must be a god'
'Do not be foolish there is no god'
At that moment the cell split in two and parted ways
The God cell went on to create and destroy
The Godless cell went on to create and destroy
They split and had the same reaction GOD no GOD.

This went on until the original two who were both brothers split from the same progenitor reached the time of their demise and this is how it went.
The God cell met with its creator who asked him 'if you could have done anything different with your life what would you have done'
The God cell said 'I wish I could have convinced my brother without a doubt that you existed'
The creator said 'so be it'
The godless cell met with destroyer who asked 'if you could have done anything different with your life what would you have done'
In anger the godless cell screamed 'I wish I could have convinced my brother without a doubt that god didnt exist'
The destroyer said 'so be it'

In front of me a horizon came into appearance and out of that horizon formed one cell. This cell had a dialog with itself which I strangely could hear. This is how it went
'I am here, so therefore there must be a god'
'Do not be foolish there is no god'
At that moment the cell split in two and parted ways.

THIS CYCLE WENT ON FOREVER! I was so thankful that it stopped when it did because I felt as though I would have lost my mind if I went through another cycle. I suggest being ready for the unsettling concept of eternity.

Exp Year: 2011ExpID: 91061
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: 23
Published: Aug 7, 2018Views: 997
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