DOSE: T+ 0:00	112 mg	oral	MDMA
T+ 3:45	20 mg	oral	4-AcO-DMT
T+ 3:45	1600 mg	oral	Piracetam
T+ 5:15		smoked	Tobacco - Cigarettes

BODY WEIGHT:

112 lb

8:15 dosed with 112 mg MDMA. We sat on the couch listening to badass music and prepared for bliss to set in. After about 30 minutes I felt my feet start to tap to the beat, then my head started to move. I could not contain myself, I had to move.

A and I got up to check out our pupils in the bathroom mirror. They were beginning to dilate and I felt rush of excitement. Every few seconds waves of energy tingled down my spine. My neck and shoulders would involuntarily tense up, which was not pleasant but moving around made it better.

We turned up the music louder. We wondered around the apartment dancing and chatting. I always wound up back in front of the music, and I danced like there was no tomorrow even though I looked like a complete fucking idiot. I wanted to talk and connect and for more people to show up so that things could get CRAZY.

Midnight dosed with AcO-4-DMT and 1600mg Piracetam (to potentiate). A’s friends (J, F, and C) finally arrived and dosed with MDMA. We all sat and talked, danced, and generally had a good time.

The AcO-4 started to kick in and after about 1.5 hours I was really feeling different. I wanted to connect with everything around me. When my eyes closed I could see shapes blending together and waves of light. I remember lying on the carpet and staring in A’s eyes for what seemed like an eternity. At first I was just checking out his pupils for dilation but I could not bring myself to look away. I did not blink. It was the most intense eye lock I have ever experienced. One of the girls asked me to go smoke a cig with her; I had never smoked a cig but was totally down to connect one on one and feel the outside world. We stepped out. I enjoyed my first cig, it was…energizing. We talked about life, our background, what the fuck were we doing here, etc. I thought she was charming and I wanted to be best friends.

We went back in and everyone was out front chilling in the grass. We joined. As I sat I noticed a rolley polley and picked him up. We watched him explore the crevasses of my hands. I could feel each of his little legs as he crawled through my fingers. We were mesmerized by this little creature and studied his movements intently. I felt profound respect for his life and the role he played in the ecosystem.

The breeze picked up and I was pulled away from my trance-like state. Colors and textures in the plants and buildings around me came to life. We decided to go back inside and watch some nature show. I sat on the living room floor and studied my friends. They were enjoying this just as much as I was and we were all connected at the utmost level.

We decided a group hug was necessary. J started talking about the beach, waves &seagulls and suddenly I could hear it in my head. I started to tear up in this embrace. J&F went into the bedroom. At some point we were in a hot tub and that was very pleasant. I remember how the vivid the night sky was.

One of our friends had a bad trip and we spent lots of time chilling him out and trying to picture what it was that he was seeing, what his inner fears were, etc. He kept seeing the devil and felt insecure with everything around him. We hovered over him and explained to him who we were, where we were, the time. The time. The time. I could not get a grip on time. Even as I looked at my phone and saw that it was 5 am, 5 am meant nothing to me. What did that even mean? Minutes felt like hours.

J and F left at around 8 the next morning and we tried to sleep through the day. We didn’t sleep. We laid in bed but I still felt so overwhelmed even in complete silence with no lights, laying in a cushy cocoon of blankets and pillows and A’s warm body next to me. The tension wouldn’t go away in my neck and jaw, I had a splitting headache. I drank copious amounts of H2O. Around 3 we were all ready to find some food. Our friend who had a bad trip was finally able to walk and express himself coherently.

The afterglow was amazing. I still felt timeless. I couldn’t stop giggling. We sat outside at the restaurant and the music was perfect. The food…oh god. It tasted like heaven. Everyone around us seemed also to be in the trance.

For several days afterwards everything was more beautiful. When I returned home from the trip and started back into my daily routines of school, work, life, everything felt different. I am able to think clearer. I was noticeably quieter the next few days and my parents have asked several times if I’m okay. I am mystified with life. Still not completely back to normal after 4 days, but getting there. I can’t wait to try this again alone and concentrate on exploring my innermost thoughts and feelings.

Exp Year: 2012	ExpID: 95374
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: 21
Published: Mar 16, 2018	Views: 1,026
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